Why Does Being a Greaser Have to be so Hard?

How could this happen? How could being a greaser effect my life so much until it's finally torn apart?
Let's go back to Friday....the movies.......I went with this guy Vance from the Basketball team at school. He said he wanted to ask me out for a while but was to shy or something. I was thinking about Ponyboy. But I thought why not give him a chance. That was a bad idea though. Last time I gave a soc a chance it ended up ruining my life! We went to the movies with Pony and Ari, Johnny, and some other people I don't know who. I had fun but the only thing I had on my mind the whole time was Ponyboy. When I looked at Vance it pained me cause I wished it wasn't him. It wasn't the right guy who had his arm around me. Who tried to kiss me when he left me at my door. It was just a plain guy. A guy sitting there trying to be nice and get me out of the hurt I was in but nothing happend. Pony stayed at our house Friday and I heard a knock on my door around 1:00. I yawned and said come in. It was Pony. He told me how sorry he was how he never loved anybody like he loved me. I told him how nice of a guy Vance was. How I should give him a chance. He bolted out of my room and Johnny heard him and chased after him. But thats the last I saw of him. I told Sodapop and Darry. But it pained me to. when I told them I started balling like a baby because he always been here for me. And now when I wake up in the morning to find him he isn't there. I walked in him room today and a tear rolled down my cheek a tear turned into a flood. I had to get some air so I walked to the park. Vance was there on a park bench with some of his friends. I kinda tried to avoid him but he said "Hey Brook come over here." I really didn't want to but I did anyway. When I was close one of his friends tripped me and I fell to the ground. All he did was laugh. I got up and another guy slapped me on the butt. Vance got up and pulled me over by a tree. He took out his switch and stabbed it into the place where me and pony carved our names together and said thats over now you got me. I gave him a dirty look. He laughed and pulled me in to kiss him. I pushed him away real quick. He said in a really scary voice "Hey! you better stop it or before you know it your little greaser isn't gonna be here for you anymore!" I yelled at him and started cussing him out. He slapped me in the face and pushed me to the ground and started kicking rocks and dirt in my face asking how I liked that...blah blah blah, got out his switch again and threw it to the ground right by my foot. It scraped the edge of my shoe and I looked up at him he was turned around yelling at one of his friends I got up and started running as fast as I could! After about a block of running I ran into Pony. I was out of breath and he asked me what was wrong I couldn't tell him because I was out of breath. He moved my hair away from my face and saw a big red hand print across my cheek. Vance was like 20 feet away from us now. Darry, Soda, and Steve pulled up in the truck and told us to get in real quick. When I was about to get in Vance pulled me back by my hood and dropped me to the ground. Darry got out real quick and punched him in the face. Vance's other friends were there kicking dirt in my face so Steve and Soda came over and started beating the shit out of them. Pony got out of the truck and scooped me up in his arms and got back in the truck and held me. All I was doing was crying. I couldn't help it. I almost died so thats a good reason I guess. Pony was holding my hand. I felt a tear drip down on my cheek and I looked up at him and he had tears rolling down both sides of his face. I kinda got up and took off my jacket and wiped away the tears from his face. He smiled at me. All I wanted was for Pony to hold me and never let me go. I love Ponyboy more than I've ever loved any other person in my intire life. If I lost him I would kill myself because I couldn't live on if something happend to him. He came over to my house. He laid down in my bed and I laid down facing him and he put the cover over both of us. He gave me a big long kiss. I was so happy but all I could do was cry still because of what happend. I put my head on his chest and just layed there. No sound, No movement, Just laying there still as a person could be. I ended up falling asleep at one point. I don't remember when. But I woke up to his heavy breathing. The sun was peaking through my satin blue curtian. I sat up and looked at him and he looked at me. He brushed his hand over my cheek and put it behind my neck. One single tear rolled down my cheek and he smiled. He pulled me in to kiss him. I wispered in his ear how sorry I was for being stupid, for being wrong, how much I loved him, and how I never wanted to let him go. He said I know. He gave me another big hug. One arm was on my back and one was by my neck. We laid back down with his arm around me. I could be the happiest girl on the planet at that point. All I needed was my other favorite guy and it would have been perfect. I need Johnny to be ok. I can't live without my brother. He's been there every second of my life and if something happend to him half my life would be missing. He was there when I was little to make sure I was ok when after our parents beat us. He told me that everything had its own way of working things out. Promised me that when we were older we would get a castle and he would be the prince and I would be the princess. I always remembered that because thats what he always told me when I felt bad. I wish he was here with me. So I knew he was safe. So I knew he would be ok and so I wouldn't have to worry about where or how he is. If those soc hurt him I'm gonna take a gun and shoot every single person who hurt them. If they mess with one Cade they mess with all of us.

Brooklyn Cade<3