Happily Ever After!!!

You guys always tell me not to walk alone on the streets! Theres soc and creepers and they personally scare the shit out of me!!!! But I just needed some fresh. air. Take Some time to think to my self. I've been in the house for 3 days straight feeling depressed cause of Pony and Johnny was taking his best friends side saying to get over him! I guess it's cause it's his best friend I don't know. Any way, I was walking around in the streets somewhat close to the Curtis's house. I walked into the park and sat on a swing! Remembering the times when Johnny, Dawn, and I would swing on them when we where little. I was daydreaming about how I wish it was like that and then I saw a big flash of light and I could tell it was headlights. And only one thought went through my mind and it was socs! When he got out of the car is when I got really scared cause it was Sean! He started walking towards me so I got off the swing and started to back up one step at a time. Kinda obvious but still moving! He told me to not be scared and that Just scared me even more. He told me he knew I still liked him and I was just staring kinda out of words. And finally I told him to get lost he's the whole reason my life is fucked up right now and he came right up in front of me and I tried to run away and he caught my hands and pulled me closer and I tried to back away but he just held me tighter! I started to scream for him to let me go and he pulled out his switch. And I screamed louder! He told me if  I didn't shut my mouth he was gonna cut me! Then I started to cry. Not like little sobs but balling cause I was so scared! Me and Pony would always walk to the park right around 9:30 just to talk and hangout. It was right around that time. Sean had tied me to one of the benches and put a rag in my mouth so I couldn't scream. He was talking on his phone in his car facing away from me and I felt somebody put their hand on my shoulder and  I gasped and he came around and it was PONYBOY!!!!! I was so ecstatic! I couldn't belive he was there. He took the rag out of my mouth and untied my hands and told me to be quiet so he wouldn't notice us! But it was too late! Sean was stepping out of his car asking what the fuck this was about and a bunch of shit like that! Pony told him to leave me only or he'd regret it. Sean said he doubted it and then Pony went up and Pushed him backwards. Sean did the same! They started to fight I got really scared! I screamed at them to stop but that didn't stop them! I tried to go up and split them apart and they did for a second and Sean punched me right in the mouth! I fell to the ground and started to cry harder already out of breath losing more. Pony Came over to see if I was ok then Sean pulled him up and started fighting again! They were on the ground and I started to run over to them (you'd think I would have learned my lesson already). Anyway Sean grabbed my ankel and pulle me to the ground.  Thats all I could remember cause I passed out! I woke up a few times to see them fighting and once I thought I saw Sodapop! It was really weird! Finally I woke up this morning seeing Pony holding me on his bed and holding my hand crying! I guess he didn't know I was awake so I squeezed his hand and he looked up at me  and smiled really big! I knew I was at his house cause the party was there and everyone else was there! I guess that was a shock! lol! He helped me get out of the bed and let me lean on him to help me walk! He stopped me at the door and kissed me something I never though I was going to get from him agian!!!! He helped me out to the living room where everyone was sitting except Darry cause college blah!!!! They looked at me and him and looked really releaved! Johnny came up to me and gave me a hug and told me to never scare him like that again or else he'd skin me! Then Dawn, Kit and James helped me over to the couch and I told everybody as much as I could remember. It wasn't much but I was happy for the most part! Pony looked at me like he did before what happend friday and I was Johnny's crazy ass little sister that he wouldn't leave for anything!!!! I had a really bad headache and ankel really hurt so Kit drove me to the doctor! I ended up fracturing my ankel cause when I tripped I hit it on a big rock or something like that!! Oh and when I fell I hit my head on the leg of the park bench! The doctor told me I was lucky to be alive and I knew I was too! I got back to the house and was laying down in my bed and Johnny came in! He told me he was sorry for yelling at me and saying that about me and Ponyboy! I told him I was sorry for being such a brat and he kind of laughed we talked for about an hour just about family stuff! He told me he never got to tell me Happy Birthday and gave me a small box. I opend it and there was a braclet inside! It had diamonds on it and in between them were little blue diamonds!!!! I was with him in town a couple of months ago and I guess he saw me looking at it and knew I wanted it! I gave him a big hug and he put it on my wrist! He left and about 10 mintutes later Ponyboy came in my room! we talked for a while and I thanked him for saving my life and I don't know what I would have done if he hadn't come!!!! He said he would have done it for anybody in the gang but I could tell this was different! We just looked in eachothers eyes and I looked down and he caught my chin and pulled me forward and kissed me I knew he had forgiven me and I was soooo happy I couldn't belive it!!!! He hugged me and I was the happiest person on the planet! The two most important guys in my life were mine agian and I was happier than ever! After that we just went back to Pony's house and Just hung out! I told the girls about me and Pony and they were happy for me! Blair did her aww thats so sweet I'm gonna barf thing but I knew she was happy for me!!!! I guess Pony told Sodapop Cause he looked at me and smiled like Pony did right when I woke up!  Everythings good and everythings right and I'm happy this is the best birthday present anybody could give me in  a million years!!!!                                                        

Whats Happening??????????

I dont know what happend!!!! When I saw johnny beating him up I just wanted him to stop!!!!! I know I hate to see people get hurt! I like to hear about it but I hate seeing it!!!!  Ok Steve you were right!!! I'm so fucking pissed about all the shit thats goin on and cause people keep fighting for no reason what so ever!!!!! I got drunk!!!! It wasn't fun at all I dont know why yall do it!!!!! When I saw Johnny hurting him I thought it was you Pony and thats why I kissed him! Ponyboy I love you!! I've never loved somebody like I do you!!!!! When I was done kissing him I looked at him and I realized who it was!!!!! I ran home and I started to cry!!!!!! Thats why I wasn't at the party I've been crying all night I haven't stopped once!!!!! I have this feeling in the pit of my stomach and it won't go away I feel terrible!!!!!!! Pony I love you!!!! I love you more than anybody else in the gang!!!!!! I want everything to be ok PLEASE PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

First Date!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so me and Pony went to the carnival thing at the school! It was our first date and if I had to explain it in one word it would be amazazing lol!!! As any Best Friend would do on your first date Jamie helped me get ready!!! I wore a simple outfit. Skinny jeans, converse, and my  plaid red jacket! She helped me with my hair and my makeup! He told me he'd come around four. So when it was about 3:30 Jamie left to go to the Curtis's house to go to the party! I know it hadn't started yet but everybody hangs out there anyway so yea! Like he said he came right around four'o'clock. I opend the door really excited cause I hung out with him before, but this was different this was a date! I was nervous but happy at the same time and I opend the door! he had a single red rose and I thought it was sooo sweet! He came in and I put the rose in a vase in my room right by my bed! We walked out and a burst of cold air hit my face and I got a chill! he put his arm around me and we started to walk! The school isn't that far away  so we just walked! We got there and he got tickets we went on a bunch of rides fast ones, slow ones, stupid ones that we just laughed at the whole way through! We went on a roller coaster and he put his arm around me again and I looked at him and smiled really big and I could feel my self blushing! Then we went on the ferris wheel! We got to the very top and it stopped for about five minutes!!! We were wondering what was going on and then a speaker came on and they said the ride broke down!!! I was like wtf! But I guess it was a good time the sun was just setting! It was the most beautiful romantic thing ever! Once agian he put his arm around me and I put my head on his shoulder! It was sooo sweet and I really can't explain what was going through my head at that point! But about 20 minutes after that the sun was down and it was dark and started to get really cold! But I didn't really care? We watched the stars and then I looked at him and we well kissed!!!!!!! I don't think that anything could make me unhappy at that point! Finally the ride started up agian lol! We got some food like nachos, popcorn, oh and of course cotton candy lol! We went on a couple more rides!!! They started to close it down cause it started to SNOW!!!!!! IT WAS CRAZY!!!!! It was snowing sooo fucking hard and it came from nowhere!!!! Anyway We had to call Kit to come get us cause we weren't gonna walk home in that lol! She was there about 5 minutes later!!! And we went to the party at Pony's house!!!!! Right when we walked in the door I about got attacked by all the girls there! I mean all the girls not just Jamie, Dawn, Blair, Kit, and Carson I mean every single girl that was there it was kinda scary lol!!! they pulled me over to the couch and asked me what happend! I told them I would tell them later I wanted to party not sit on the couch and talk!!! But thats kinda what you do! what ever! The rest of the time me and Jamie and the rest of us all danced our asses off!!!! Every once in a while I would look at Pony and he would smile at me! I knew Jamie could tell I had a good time!!!!!!!!! By the time the party was over me pony and who ever else was up helped clean up!!! We only stayed up so we could go outside with out anyone saying anything!!! We couldn't go outside during the party or else people would know what we were doing!!! So we just waited! Johnny Was talkin to Sodapop. Steve was passed out on the floor lmao!!! Car was on the couch! And Blair, Jamie, Jelly, and Dawn were talkin to Katie So we went outside! He gave me and big hug!!!! And kissed me! I swear I was the happiest person on the planet!!! I don't need somebody with money to make me happy! Just somebody that can give me what I want!!!! Johnny and Dawn came outside and asked if I was ready to leave I said yea in a calm but happy voice!  They knew I was happy there my blood they know everything about me!!! When I got home I got in my bed and just layed there staring at the rose!!! No matter how hard I tried I couldn't go to sleep!!!

I Don't Even Know

Ponyboy just tell me one thing! Do you like me or not??? cause  i need somebody right now and i need to know if it can be you or it can't!!! there's too much shit going on and i need a shoulder to cry on!!!

Depression Hurts!!!

So I feel terrible that James is grounded!!!! I'mm sooooooo sorry!!! I'm scared of what Two-bit will do to get back at us! And Carson hasn't came out of her coma yet!!!! But the worst thing of all is that I went over to Sean's house last week!!! there was one car in the drive way so I just walked like I normally do! And to my BIG SURPRISE Sean and CHERRY were on the couch together! Yea Cherry......Cherry, Sherri Valance was on the couch with Sean making out all over each other!!! I said what the fuck is this!!! and they both looked up! Sean looked freaked and Cherry looked like a bitch! seriously she was lookin at me like haha got you back bitch!!! She came up to me and I was about to slap her but Sean caught me hand! I'll admit I'm not a very good fighter but mess with me and I'll go ape shit on your ass!!!! Anyway IT told me that she got me back for what I did! I was like what the fuck did I do! She was like you know how you've been spending all that time with Ponyboy! I was like what the fuck bitch we're just friends!!!! And I wouldn't CHEAT on Sean But apparantley he would cheat on me!!! But she just kept talkin and then said something that made my heart drop!It said that Sean was the father of her baby!!!!!!! All I wanted to do was break down and start crying and thats just what I did!!!!! I walked home slowly and went strait to my room! Johnny and Dawn just looked at me and could tell I was upset but could also tell I wanted to be alone! They didn't know what was wrong but I didn't want to talk about it!!!!!!!!

But I think a certain greaser could possibly make me feel better! :)

The Trip!!!

So we decided to drive the van to see carson! I really don't understand why?! no seriously why??? We all got in the van and we started to drive. There was TWELVE of us in there so it was jam packed the whole way there! But it was worth it to see carson!!! Any way about an hour into the trip ponyboy wanted to stop cause he was hungry but we all were cause we left at 10 and didnt really eat that much just junk food!!! So we stopped at Denny's! YUMMY! lol! and we stayed there about a half hour and we were back on the road then agen it took us about a good 10-15 minutes to get all of us back into the car!!! but the thing is Kit was driving! So when she thought all of us were back in the car! she started to drive but we heard a thump on the back window! LMFAO!!! It was Pony! Kit started to drive away without him lol!!! Soooo it took another 10 minutes to get him back in! I fell asleep about a half hour after that and missed alot! unfortunautly!!! :( they told me when I woke up that they had already ate lunch and I was really hungry! For food not for well junk food!!! :P Two-bit was driving by this time and I told him I was really hungry so he stopped at Burger King to get me some food but everybody else wanted something and two-bit forgot to get my order and everybody got there food and I STILL didn't get anything!!! He was driving by the time everybody got there food and But I yelled and told him he didn't get me anything! BUT HE SAID HE WASN'T STOPPING!!!! So I was really pissed! and I was soooo hungry all I ate was chips, cookies, and some food from denny's but that was way early!!! But we got to the hotel and I still haven't had any "real" food! So me, Blair, Johnny, and Jamie walked across the street to steak 'n' shake and I FINALLY got something to eat!!! I was satisfied!!! We had three hotel rooms! Boys & girls.And a room for Sodapop and Katie! we all had a short sleep before going to the hospital and I me and James were the first to wake up cause we both fell asleep in the van for a while!!! she felt bad that two-bit didn't stop while earlier to get me food!!! So we snuck into the boys room and took our makeup with us and put makeup all over his face!!! lmao!!! That's what you get two-bit for not stoppin and making me wait four hours to eat!!!!
So when we got to the hospital two-bit still had the makeup on his face I felt kinda bad but didn't say anything!!! He went up to the front desk to ask what room carson was in and the receptionist screamed and jumped out of her seat!!! and papers went flying everywhere! We laughed our asses off and she gave us a real dirty look! But Two-bit was sooo hoplessley confused so the receptionist gave him a mirror and gasped lol!!! He heard me laughing and looked really really pissed so he started coming after me!!!! It was kinda creepy and so I started to run! he chased me around the lounge for about five minutes! When he finally caught me I told him it was Jamie's idea and let's just say it wasn't pretty!!! But we're with Carson now she hasn't wakin up yet but I really Hope she does soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No Place Like Home!!!

So I stayed at the Curtis' house the past few nights and I have to admit it was fun staying up late talking to Kit cause she's my sister and I love her for that!!! The thing is that it wasn't the  same as staying at the apartment with Johnny! I know we fight sometimes but I know he'll always be there for me when I need him!!! Kit drove me over there to the apartment and when I walked in Johnny was sittin on the couch looking really sad looking at me and I felt terrible that I left him!!! I dropped my stuff and he gave me a BIG hug! There's nothing like feeling the love of your family after you know you've hurt them!!! All I kept doing was saying I'm sorry and..... he kept saying I forgive you and but I couldn't seem to stop!!! He said sorry too! Then it just kinda got quiet and really akward! He said he wouldn't let me see Ponyboy without him because he cares about me more than anything!!! and then I started to cry cause I knew the reason but I couldn't stop........like when I couldn't stop saying sorry! He got me a tissue and held me close and I realized that we have to stay together there for each other like the gang is!!! But after I cooled off he told me that what happen about that muther fucking stupid ass fucker soc james!!!! AND HE TOLD ME HIM AND PONYBOY ARE FRIENDS AGEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See Johnny I told you I had a bad feeling about that stupid ass admit it you have to!!!