Brookie Lauren Cade

I Missed You...♥

2011-02-13T01:24:00.000-08:00

I hadn't felt this in a long time. His lips on mine. I'd been taken by surprise and I usually didn't like that ,but at this moment it couldn't have been more perfect. The way the light from the fireworks hit the water reflecting it into Pony's eyes....

Okay back to reality...by now we were in full lip lock :P The cops came by with a flashlight not realizing how late it was. Also not realizing the fireworks had ended from the time we had started our little makeout session. "You need to go kids..you house might be nice you won't get into trouble there." the cop said in a snobbish tone. I NEVER once liked them. I mean...aren't they supposed to be there to "protect the citizens of the city"...never seems to go that way huh? They push us around and treat socs like they're their sons and daughters! -.- anywho back to the story! We got into his car. "You gonna start er up there Pones?" I asked nodding at the ignition. He looked at me. From that point all I remember was somehow getting in the back seat ,making out ,and having our shirts off. Then all of a sudden there was a crash at the back of the car. Not from someone else's ,but from an object. "What the fu--" "Stay here.." Pony said. I narrowed my eyes at him as he got out of the car. I'd waited long enough. I put a jacket on and got out. At first I didn't see anyone. Pony came up behind me. I gasped then asked what was wrong. He laughed and said nothin. Just his friends from school messin around. "Nice way to mess around smashing your car" I said as I glared at Pony's friends behind him. He pulled me in closer and kissed me on the cheek. "It's fine they said they'd pay for the damage" He said calming me down. "No their parents will...doubtfully" "It'll be fine," he said kissing me gently. "...okayy, let's go I wanna do somethin." I said looking from his friends to him grabbing his hand pulling him to the car. "I'll talk to you guys later or somethin!" He yelled back to them. "man your whipped!" they yelled before Pony shut his car door. I looked at him..."What???" "nothin let's just go to the park" I said with a big smile. He smiled back and drove off. We were there for a while. Maybe two or three hours. We were sitting on the bench. My head was on his shoulder and then out of no where some random chick starts going off on Pony. I didn't realize her at first cause it was dark out. I finally saw that it was Raine. She was mad at Pony because "he was the cause of their breakup" and a hole bunch of other shit. I just kinda scoffed and she gave me a death glare. "What are you laughing at blondie!?!" she practically screamed. "Oh nothing just the thought of Pony acctually dating YOU is just......hystarical" I said with a smug look on my face. I grabbed his hand...obviously I can't be alone with him tonight with out getting interupted at all. So when we started walking away Raine grabbed my hair and yanked me back. I fell on my butt to the ground. I just sat their for a second taking in what just happend. I looked up to see Pony pushed up against a tree while the whore was kissing him. That was more than enough for me to want to beat the shit out of her. "Hey you whore!!" I yelled. I grabbed the back of her hair and pulled her face to where I could see it and slammed my fist into it once...or twice...or a lot. I pushed her down so her head slammed against the tree trunk. I kinda cringed at the last part...I felt bad about that. Anyway by the time I was done with her she had a black eye and a bloody nose. I turned around and put my hands by Pony's neck ,who was in pure shock, and gave him a long passionette kiss. His arms wrapped around my waist. "I Love You Pony" I said laying my head by his neck. He held me a little tighter "I love you too baby"

Broooookss!!!

See! See! I posted! I posted! :D

Winta Ball

2010-12-14T14:59:00.000-08:00

I'm still a little mad about what the guys did ,but happy they did it too. Last night was the Winter Ball!(: Bryce was back in where ever so Steve offered to take me! I kinda laughed at the thought of goin with him ,but we're friends so it's cool. I called Jamie. no answer....I tried a couple more times. Still nothing. So I went over to her house and started banging on the door. "JAMIE!! OPEN THE DAMN DOOR!!!"...that went on for about 20 minutes. "Eyy kid" Blair said. "Hey!" I said walking in & goin up to Jamie's room. "Go away.." "Nahh!! I'll stay!" I perked up throwing my dress shoes & other shit I had on her bed. She did her...mad frowny face thing. "Get ya damn dress out & get ready! Guys are comin at 5!" We got ready did our makeup ,hair ,all the stuff to get ready for a dancy thing. :P I heard knocking on the door. Me & James opended it and Steve was fixing Austin's tie...Austin shot me a "stfu" look...and I just walked out the door with Steve laughing. We met them at the school about an hour later. With Pony, Raine, Johnny ,and Angela. We went in. Danced had a fun time. James won homecomin court...Queen or whatever. At some point we all changed dancing partners. I was with Austin, James was with Pony, Steve was with Angela, & Johnny was with Raine. I was kinda impressed...Austins acctually a good dancer. Unlike Pony....steps on your feet everytime. Poor Jamie :P Yea that's pretty much it for the dance. I think people were havin sex idk..it was crazy. The rest of the night was fun. lol :P

Mmmmkayy!! So when Steve dropped me off at home I saw someone standing on my poorch. I ran up and tapped them on the shoulder. "Hey..uh who are you?" They turned around & it was Bryce! :D I gave him a big hug and kiss, unlocked the door & went inside. What are you doing here?! "How'd you get here?! How did you find..." he laughed. "I heard you talkin about tulsa. Ya know when you were back in Denver?" "ohhh...well I'm glad your here!!" We went back to my room & I changed out of my dress into shorts and a t-shirt then layed down next to him. We immediatley started makin out. :P haha. He started to put his hand up my shirt but I stopped him. "Come on baby...just have fun" he smirked and kept kissin me. Part of me wanted to "have fun" but another part was tellin me to just.....not? I pushed him off of me and told him he needed to leave. I tried pushin him out of my room but couldn't he got in and locked it & pushed me on the bed & started taking my close off. I screamed and tried getting away ,but he was too strong :S. Ya'll know what happens next :P He left & said "Seeya later baby ;)" I just layed on my bed crying...I didn't want to call anyone or see anybody. I felt embarrased.

So what do ya do when shit happens? Ya get into more shit that you thinks good for you. I walked over to the bar. I sat down & layed my head on the table. Tim came over "Hey kid" I looked up at him and layed my head back down. "god what's got you greaser kids all fucked up now a days!?" "Would you shtut up and go away? I'm not in the fuckin mood Tim.." "I was jokin..what's wrong?" I wasn't gonna tell him....I didn't want to and I don't even know him that well. "just stuff :/" "Haha ok..talk to ya later" I looked back at him as he started to walk away. "Tim!" "yea man whats up?" "Watcha got in your pocket?" I knew what it was...just was stupid then and asked. "you don't want this kid it'll mess up your life" "Life's already messed up..can I have it?" "Sure kid 30 bucks" I gave him 25...he delt with it. I went to the park and sat on one of the swings. I rolled a joint. I saw Kyle do it 947984778947 times...so it seemed pretty easy...& it was. I was off my fuckin rocker by the time half the bag was gone. I stumbled around some. Someone called my name. It was Austin. I must've said some pretty messed up shit to him. "Brooke what did you do.......?" I was slurrin my words big time. "Gimme that Brook" "NO!" I pushed him..."Do you wann a be messed up like I am?"...."I'm not your just you...and I'm just me." I smiled. "No....I screw'd up my life....you got things goin for ya don't wanna mess it up.." "toooo late hun!" Then he started talking about how bad they were blah blah blah...he some how conviced me to give them to him. I almost collapsed ,but he caught me. "Come on I'm takin you to get some hlep. Need me to carry you or will ya be fine?" "I'm fine" I took one step and fell to the ground. "I'm sure you are" He said sarcastically as he picked me up. I layed my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes "We're almost there don't give in.." I started breathin really heavy. "Can I get a doctor over here!!??" I heard Austin yell. It woke me up and gave me a serge of pain through my head. He stood me up when the doctor came over and I backed up behind him. "Brooke I'll be here when they let you out...they'll take care of you I promise.." I looked up at him with a scared look. "oh..ok.." the doctor took me back...put a gas mask on me and I didn't remember a thing. I have to stay here a couple days -.- just cause doctors are stupid and assholes. I got stuck with Tina...that fuckin nurse...-.- Austin came back to the room..."how ya doin." "ehh...I'm doin.." He laughed..."don't scare me like that again..ok? I don't want you getting hurt." "Thanks Austin for everything.." "No problem Brooks" He smiled...then I fell asleep and that was that. :P

Brooks..

Light at the end of the Tunnel Part Dos!

2010-12-04T18:32:00.000-08:00

Small town girl from Tulsa. Raised by drunkin teenagers & abusive parents. I am Brooklyn Cade and this is my story...duh duh...:P
Ok little dramatic? Yes!...all true? Of course it is! but I love you guys so it's ok(:

Bryyyce(:

So I was walking down the side walk past a little store. Toy store. I thought of the gang...what shit we would fuck up in there. I half smiled and looked down then frowned. I kicked a small rock & thought about everybody I missed soooo much. I looked up and saw the coffee shop sign. I sighed and walked in. "Bryce!!! Where are you!?!" "Right here!" He came over and kissed me on the cheek. Then Santa came over. "Brooklyn you've been here two weeks. Do you have enough money to pay off your debt yet?" "Uhmmm.....I think I have to work another week and I'll have enough....oh! can I have your autograph? My friend back home wants it cause she got dropped on the head when she was little(: but it's wierd cause her dad's a doctor and you'd think he would've...." then Bryce kissed me and I blushed. "Rambling agian?" "Little bit haha!" I just smiled and hugged him. "You can have the autograph...after you work!" Santa threw an apron and hat at me. *btw Santa's real name is Cory & Bryce es mi novio (:* I went behind the counter and started making coffee for one of the customers. I worked till nine and got off work. I heard the bell to the door ring and I looked over and dropped to the floor. I thought. "The fuck!? What're they doing here?!" "Have you seen someone named Brooklyn Cade?" "Uhh...yea she's right over...??...she was over there a minute ago...she might be in the back." "Ok thanks man we'll wait." "Bryce!....brryyyce!!" I kinda screamed whispered. I took one of the paper coffee cups and threw it at him he looked down at me and came over. "Babe....what are you doing down there?" "I know them..." I pointed to Dallas, Austin, Soda, Two-bit, & Steve kinda pissed. "oh! I'll tell them your here." He started to walk off. I grabbed him by the hood & pulled him to the ground. "To hell you are!" The guys looked over and I got behind the counter more. "Tell them your closed.." "but.." I death glared him & held the front of his shirt in a fist "just.do.it." "sorry guys we're closed. you can come back tomorrow though." "Listen man...we know you know where she is. Just tell us." I heard Dal's threatening voice and kinda cringed cause I was scared shit was gonna go down. "We just want her back man...we don't want her getting hurt." Soda said. I sighed...and got really sad. "If I see her I'll tell her you were here." "Thanks man" said Austin. I heard the bell ring agian and looked up. "That the people you were telling me about?....your family from back home" ":/ yea kinda." I'll talk to you later I gotta take care of something" "I understand." He kissed me on the forhead and drove off. I ran out of the door and saw a car take off seeing it was the guys. I sat down by the door of the coffee shop and started crying my eyes out. A car came back swerving down the street and I could hear the guys laughing. It stopped right in the middle of the street. I looked up...I saw the guys standing there outside the car. I got up and ran over to them. I ran into Austin's arms & he hugged me then put me back down on the ground. "Don't ever leave again. got it?" "I won't I promise" I hugged everybody. Even Dal was being nice. Steve grabbed my arm "Come on we're taking you home." "No! I can't leave yet!" "Brook come on..we drove fifteen hours to come find you...your leaving get in the car." Dal said kinda scary. I backed up a little bit. "I..I can't. I have to do something first...." "Brook get in the damn car!!" Twobit yelled. I started running. Him and Dal came after me. Dally picked me up and put me in the car...I was kicking the whole time but him & Steve kept me pinned down in the back seat while someone else was driving. I felt like I was back in Tulsa, Oklahoma with the socs. Except I was in Denver,Colorado with the greasers...or no. My family who was supposed to be there for me not threatin me with duct tape...-.- Austin. He put it over my mouth and eventually I gave up knowing I wasn't gonna win. Twobit ripped the duct tape off of my mouth and I kicked him in the head. "Ok Brook tell me how you get your foot over your head?" Soda questioned. I laughed and just said "It's what I do :P" It being about 9:40 I was tired from working all day. I fell asleep on Dal's shoulder and took my ride home to Tulsa. Good right? Yea...YOU would think so. :/

Brooks!(:

A Light at the End of the Tunnel Parte Uno

2010-11-24T00:33:00.000-08:00

I jumped on the freight train. Not sure where I was heading. Keeping quiet so the guards wouldn't hear me. I had a lot on my mind. Feeling bad that I just left with no warning...again. It was dark & cold. All I had brought with me was my worn leather jacket from a couple birthdays back from Johnny and Dawn. In the inside pocket was one hundred dollars. And my cellphone...but it died. *note to self -bring phone charger when I run away from home next time :p* It's not like I had service on the train where ever in the world it was taking me. I litterally had no clue. It was too dark to see out so I just decided to sleep. I woke up to someone trying to get the money out of my jacket. He reminded me of Dallas ,but darker ,meaner ,and a colder glare in his eyes. I screamed and he covered my mouth. I bit his hand and jumped off the train. Not realizing it wasn't moving anymore & it was at some small town fancy train station I smacked my face on the pavement and everybody looked at me. When I'm put on the spot and embarrased like that I have no other choice in my mind but to cry. My eyes started tearing up so I got up real fast and ran into the nearest bathroom. I held my hand to my head and saw that my head was bleeding. Couldn't I of been more aware of my surroundings and realize the train had stopped and not fall on my ass? Apparentley not. :P I suddenley wished I was at home. In my bed waking up from a bad dream. Waking up to Johnny making chocolate chip muffins. Waking up to Dawn yelling at me to wake up and get ready for school. I missed it. I wet a towel and wiped the blood from my head and about half of it turned red. I heard a lite tap on the door. "Be right out..." I sighed. I looked in the mirror and thought. Was this really Brooklyn Cade? The Cookie Monster everybody cared about ,but was too stupid to this realize till she was a million miles away from them? I shook my head and threw the towel in the trash and walked out. "Look what we have here fellas." I heard a recognizable voice. I turned around & my eyes practically bugged out of my head. "What's wrong grease? Think your problems could just go away on a midnight freight?" "Bite me you asshole!" "Now now Cade. That's a pretty smart mouth you got there. You do remember who your talking to don't you? I got Angelica. Rhiley Winston. The "precious little kitten" two drunk to cooperate. And that one kid...muffin man" He looked me dead in the eyes with the most evil tone. "Johnny.Cade." A chill went through my body. Yea I was scared. Little Bobby Sheldon could tell too. That wasn't gonna stop me from using my smart mouth. "oh my god your right! you did!!" I fakely laughed. "but uh...ya didn't get me." I slapped him in the face and ran the hell out of there. Ran into this coffee shop. I swung the door open so hard that it hit this guys chair and made him spill his coffee all over his new watch. I only know this cause he started yelling at me. I looked out the window across the street. Bob and his gang where looking for me. "Oooone second sir I'll be right with you." I jumped over the counter knocking over a glass pitcher of hot tea. -.- Glass shattered. Hot tea sent pain up my arm and tears come out my eyes. I heard the bell ring when someone came in. "Come out, come out where ever you are....We know your in here Cade no use in hiding huh?" This was the moment I wish Dallas was here with me. Or I'd been smart enough to not leave home. I heard footsteps and stuck my head up some to see where they were going. Bob pulled me up by the collar of my jacket real close up to him. His rings up against my neck. "Don't mess with me kid you'll regret it." He spoke under gritted teeth. He shoved me back down & I fell to the floor and watched him walk out. "Da fuck happend down here???!!!" I started smiling so big cause I knew the nest words coming ou tof my mouth were gonna be giddy and dmb as shit. I walked up to the guy. Real big and a huge! white beard. I poked him in the belly...."Sir are you by chance Santa Clause?" "Did you by chance make this mess?" "I might've" I smirked. "I'll never tell." "Me either. " He winked and patted me on the head. I was like "oh helll no! I just met Santa Clause! did you just see that!?!? THAT! was Santa!!" Everybody in there looked at me like I was smoking some mary fuckin jane. So I took a cookie and left.(: "Hold on Ma'm you need to pay for the damage you've done." I took the hundred out and frowned. "All I gots a hundred and I need it to get home." "How bout you stay here for two weeks and work for me? Theres a loft above the shop you can stay there until you leave. Deal?" Rule ONE in runawayerie..don't trust no one. "I'l think about it" I walked out. with out my hundred cause he still took it for "the damage" That night I slept on the street. Cold, lonely, and hungry. Practically in a gutter. Wishing I was home with the gang at the Curtis's house. Instead I was in a gutter...and a million miles from hom.e...

Brooks...

Dirty Hands and An Unfinished Job

2010-11-15T20:47:00.000-08:00

Soo me and Kyle came home yesterday. lol(: Jamie was happy to see me again. Johnny was kinda pissed at me for just getting up and leaving. :p Kit was mad too for just leaving and not waiting for break. After everyone was done yelling they wanted to see my tattoo. :) I love it. I wanted to hangout with the gang. Like we used to. So we did. We all did. We trashed people's houses. Jumped minnie socs. :3 & stole crap lmao. Then we went out to eat and People asked what me and Kyle did in D.C. I told them we went to some old War Museum. Kinda freaked me out ,but still fun. We went to a bunch of skate parks and Kylie met people there. Had a skate contest...he won. lol. Halloween was fun too. Not the same without the gang. Still fun though. We went to a club. Partied. Got wasted. yea you get it same old thing. :P I think the funnest thing was when we all went out...drunk. and scared the little kids out of there candie. We had about 10 pillow cases full of candy...and some of the other guys got black eyes from the responsible parents lmao. Then I got closer to Kyle cause Socs came in. Heard I was back aparentley. Don't know what I did to piss them off this time. But one of the girls started screaming at me. Blair started yelling and I told her to stop. Didn't yell. Not bitchy. Just..."stop." "Yea! But Brook they...!!" "Blair! just stop. Please?" I cut her off. I got up and walked out of the diner. She followed me. "Heyy! Broke?" she said jokingly "what's the matter kiddo?" I looked at her and started crying. No not crying balling. I couldn't help myself. It was just what happend. It's like I didn't know what else to do. She hugged me and told me everything was gonna be fine. I told her what was wrong. Pretty much everything. She understood and I was....not happy at all ,but in relief she understood. I went home that night. I couldn't sleep at all. I knew what was wrong and I wanted to go. Not with Kyle ,or Jamie ,or Blair ,or anybody I wanted to leave Tulsa and be by my self. So thats what I did. I left. It felt good to just get out...be by myself. Try new things. Meet new people. I'll be back when I feel like I should come back.....I'm not sure when that will be but....I'm gone for now. Love You All <3

~Brooklyn~

D.C. PAAART!!!!!!! one. :3

2010-10-23T08:03:00.000-07:00

Me and Kyle were hanging out the other day ,and truthfully I was sick of all the drama. I asked him if I left Tulsa would he'd come with me and he said yes. So we decided to go to D.C. :D I'm not sure how long we'll be there ,but we will comeback. It's also gonna be a long drive :P buuut it's ok as long as I'm with Kyle(:

So we left around 9 yesterday morning. Yea I know a little earlie escpecially for Kyle ,but we had to leave early to get there sooner? IDK! point is we left early!! It seems like we never stopped driving. He pulled into a gas station to fill up the tank. I went in and got a bunch of junk for us to eat. :P This kid kept lookin at me ,then he came over and tried to put his hands on my n kiss me and shit. I pushed him away ,but he came back and put his hand around my neck. I guess Kyle saw cause he came in and said to the kid "keep your fuckin hands off her or there'll be some problems" I just wrapped my arms around him and we walked back to the car and got in. I kissed me on the cheek and asked if I was ok. I shook my head yes and sat to the far side of the car and just looked out the window and put my head on my arm. I didn't wanna be sad. I was with an amazing person and I didn't wanna ruin either of ours fun time. I sighed and sat close to him. He put his arm around me and he told me he isn't going to let anything or anybody hurt me. I just smiled and put my head on his shoulder and fell asleep. When I woke up and yawned then streched. I kissed Kyle on the cheek and I asked how long till we get there. He said about an hour. So we just talked about everything. It's easy to talk to him...idk if he understands most the time but easy to let your feelings out around him. Finally!! We got to D.C. I smiled real big. Kyle parked the car and we went in to eat. There was an older guy by the table next to us. He asked if we were dating. I said yea and smiled. He said, "Don't let her go. You'll regret it son." I smiled and laughed a little Kyle smiled too and said, "I'm not" and winked at me and held my hand. We left the restaurant and just walked around. Kyle saw this tattoo place and wanted to go look. I don't know what there is to look at ,but he wanted to. :P I don't see how people can be put through pain like that. Some people say it doesn't hurt that bad ,but it seems like it does. :P haha. He opended the lock in this hotel room. ,or he picked the lock not opened it, and we put our shit in there. I layed down on the bed and started thinking. Kyle came over and put his arm on my back and layed down by me and put his head by mine. "What's up?" 'Just thinkin" I said. "About??" I just looked at him. Then we started making out. I stopped him and asked what he thought if I got a tattoo. He kissed me a little more and said it'd be hot. :P I kept thinking. I don't want one that's outrageous. Maybe just a small one? We went back to the tattoo place. He asked if I was sure...It's permanent. blah blah. I shook my head yes kinda scared. Not about what I was about to do. Just about the pain. I layed down on the table thing ,Kyle stuck out his hand. I wasn't about to go through that without him. After it was done I looked in the mirror and was happy. I couldn't stop smiling. It hurt like hell to get though..
Eh this is enough I'll post about the rest later. :D

Brooks <3

The tat I got <3

Long Time No See :O

2010-10-05T19:47:00.000-07:00

I was sitting in my room with cupcake(: Johnny walked by and scoffed. I just rolled my eyes and threw her ball down the hallway so she attacked Johnny's ankle. He screamed my name I ran and scooped her up and put her on my bed and tapped her nose. I layed down and started thinking. Cupcakes are Cristy's thing...not mine. :/ and I don't wanna name my dog muffin....xD. They aren't my thing either...Cookies are...Johnny came in. "If you don't keep your dumb dog out of my space I'll..." "She'll stay out of your way." I cut him off. "Good!" He glared at me. I picked her up and put on her studded pink leash to take her for a walk. I put her down and looked at the stuffed cookie monster Austin got me from New York then walked out the door. I was thinkin of a new name. Cookie Monster is my name....so is Cookie Mawnsta...it'd be wierd to name my dog after me. :P A soc car drove by me and splashed me with water....It'd had miraculously been raining that night and water was still in the street. I was soaked with dirty water...and so was Cupcake. :/ I didn't really want to walk all the way back to my house...so I walked around covered in dirty street water. :P I stopped by the gas station to get a drink. I walked in and the clerk guy said I had to leave my dog outside...I looked down and her and half frowned kinda. I asked if I could just get a drink real fast and he raised his voice "No! Pets! Miss!" and did a stupid chuckle. I glared at him. I tied up Cupcake outside to a telephone pole. I got my drink and slammed my money on the counter. "Keep the change cheap skate!" I said as I walked out. I was outside she wasn't there. I looked around and saw my dog running. Not just running like really fast. I dropped my soda and took off. Some kids picked her up in and got in their car. I screamed at them ,but they'd already taken off. I started crying. Hard. I loved that dog ,and I was too stupid and didn't try hard enough I guess. I walked to the Tasty Freeze to see Elena. I walked in and she asked what was wrong and I told her. "Aww Brookie I'm so sorry" She said frowning and hugging me. A bell rang and a kid about two years older than me came in the door holding a crate. I looked at him excited. "Benny?!" "BROOK!!" he sat the crate down and I ran and gave him a hug. "Hey cousin what's happening I haven't seen you in a while..I missed you" He laughed. "I missed you too! What are you doing in Tulsa???" He smiled and told me our uncle got a job out here. "Cool!" I said...then looked at the crate and tapped it then looked back at Benjamin. :P What's in there? "Just a dog haha" I heard yelping and opened it up. It was Cupcake!!! I heard teh door ring again. "Hey! That's our dog we found him on the street you piece of trash!!" He said slamming his shake on the table. I came out with her and looked up at him and smirked. It was my other cousin Cesar. Haha. "Oh. Well look what we have here Benny...it's our dear cousin Brooklyn"

Benny laughed. He was the same age as me...our birthday was only a day apart so we've always been close.(: I find it wierd how my mom and my aunt decided to pop us out only a day apart...it's kinda wierd. :P I got up and hugged him. He nugded me in the arm and took a drink of his shake. "Sup cuz?" He said as he nodded his head and leaned against the table trying to look cool. The table started to tip so he fell on his ass. "Nothing much...,but uh...looks like your takin a trip xP" I laughed." Hey we're were gonna go do something wanna come with us?" Benny asked. "Yea!" I said cheerfully. I dropped off cupcake at my house. They asked what there was to do around here....and I realized for the first time that Tulsa is really boring. My mind went blank. "Uh? There's....football? or...a fight. theres usually a party everynow and then." I said trying to think. They just stared at me. "Ok! let me think" I sat on a bench. "Let's go bother some socs" I smirked. They both looked confused as hell ,and from being way up north they didn't know what a soc was. "It's fun trust me!" I linked arms with them and started walking down the street. We wen to te mall. ALWAYS so many socs to fuck with there. ;) I walked in the haircutting place and I pointed out one of the socs in there and she glared at me. We sat down and I told them to stay here. I snuck into the back of the shop and put on a uniform to work there. "NEXT!!" I screamed. I turned around real fast so the soc wouldn't see me "I'd like a quick rinse and a short trim" "Will do!" I led her to the sink and made her close her eyes and told Cesar to come back. I took his shake and dumped it in the soc girls hair. He started laughing when she jumped cause it was still cold. I "rinsed" it out and led her back to the chair and told her to keep her eyes closed so it'd be a surprise. I told Benny to come back and I asked for his blade. He handed it to me cautisouly. "OW!" the soc snapped. "WTH ARE YOU USING A BLADE?!?!" "Hella No-a" Cesar SUCKS at faking an italian accent. I smacked him in the stomach. I let the guys do the rest of the work on the chick's hair. "All finished! Open up!!" We heard screaming down the mall cooridoor. We ran into a cookie shop and sat at a table and started laughing real hard. A waitress came by and asked what we wanted. "A big cookie!" I said..."annd three smoothies!" she came back with the cookie and check. our drinks were sitting on the counter still. The waitress started to walk away and Benny slapped her ass. She let out a shriek so loud it about busted my ear drum. Benny leaned toward me "Think we should run?" "Oh yea." We all took a hunk of the cookie and booked it. We sat on the swings at the park and the little trouble maker decided to throw his hunk of cookie at me. It got all in my hair...I mean it was still soaked with dirty street water so it kinda stuck -.- "Thanks ,Thanks a lot Cesar" I said glaring at him. A car drove up and stopped by us. It was my uncle. I smiled real big and gave him a hug. He uncle asked if I needed a ride home and said it was ok. I'd just walk. He said ok and drove off. I started to walk home and someone ran up behind me and spun me around then put me down. I turned around to see Kyle. "What are you doing here!?" "Oh well sorry I'll leave then." I grabbed his hand and gave him a hug. I sat on the swing and he started to push me. "So..did you have fun with out me today?" He asked. I laughed "Well!! if I do say so myself it was marveolous, Hey!..do you like chocolate chip?" "What??" He came infront of me. "Do you like chocolate chip?" "Yea I guess why Broc?" "Psh no reason." I said as I started to run home. "Hey where you goin??" he yelled to me. "To see ChocolateChip! Duh!" I yelled back. He looked so confused ,but I'll make it up to him later. I ran in and picked up my dog....Johnny walked in. "Hey John John guess what!! I'm changing Cupcakes name to ChocolateChip!" He looked at me and laughed...."hey...it's better then that shitty name you had before."

~Brookie Cooookie Cade :D~

P.S. down there are my cousins :D

Cesar xD

Benny(:

2010-09-17T22:02:00.000-07:00

I was laying on Jamie's couch crying, yelling at Austin to get away from me. I knew he was drunk. I just wanted him to stop. He kept kissing me. I heard a slap and looked at Jamie. She had a huge red mark across her face. Then she punched Austin in the nose. He pushed her and she slammed into the wall and started undoing my shirt. I pushed him away and he brought me closer and smirked and flipped his hair out of his eyes and kept kissing. I kepting trying to get him off of me but he just kept holding me tighter. Jamie was looking around for something. I couldn't pay attention to that. Just the big slob on my mouth. Then all of a sudden I saw a bat come down on Austins shoulder and pass out. and fall onto the floor. I just lied on the couch crying while James brought in a chair from the dining room. She got Austin in the chair and yelled at me to go get rope out of the garage. I ran back and we tied him up. I sat back down and covered up my head and was breathing real hard and crying. Jamie came and sat by me and told me it was gonna be ok. She promised me ,but....I didn't really believe her. She called Johnny,Dallas, and Two-bit to come over ,but didn't call the police....she wanted me to decide what to do. Have them involved or not. Honestly I don't think I was in shape for that. I didn't like the police. If they got involved I'd probably be taken away from Johnny. I looked at him. It wasn't the sweet, caring guy I was dating. It was a reckless, destructive...drunk. He woke up..and me and James were standing in front of him. He looked confused and didn't know what was going on. Still half drunk he asked what was going on. Two-bit punched him in the face and blood started running out down his face. Johnny and Jamie were by me on the couch. Dallas untied him and brought him out to the front yard. Two-bit ran out and they both looked at each other like hell was about to rise to the surface. Me, Johnny, and James were on the porch far away from what was about to be the worst fight I've seen. Dallas did most of the work. Two-bit is about as bad ass of a fighter as Dal too though. Austin fought back but since he was drunk he kept missing his target. That went on about 10 minutes until finally I screamed at them to stop. Dallas and Two-bit held back Austin while I screamed at him. I have never been so mad. He tried to kiss me but I slapped him in the face. I told him how I've never been so insulated. He THEN snapped out of whatever the hell had come over him. He got out of the guy's holds and wrapped his arms around telling me how sorry he was. He didn't mean to hurt me....blah blah blah. I backed up and held onto his arms. "Austin...you broke my heart once by telling me you didn't love me ,then getting back together with you the next day. At first I really didn't want to cause I thought it was a mistake ,but I trusted you enough to come back. Then you go and do this. I was scared." then I started crying pretty hard again. "I was scared you were gonna hurt me Austin. I don't want anyone hurt....I just..think we need some time. some...sometime apart. So I can think strait. I don't want the cops involved because that will just lead to a bigger mess." I let go of him and ran inside. Jamie followed then Johnny and Two-bit. It was quite. I heard Dallas talking outside with Austin. "Hey man, why don't you just leave...your just causing trouble just go home." I cupped my face in my hands and started balling. I was sitting on the couch with Johnny and he was holding me. Telling me everything was going to be ok. Dal walked in and looked at me and said "I'm sorry kid." Then did that kind of frownish face that he makes when he actually means it. I just nodded and hugged Jamie and Two-bit and went home with Johnny and cried. I told him I didn't want to be free anymore. It wasn't fun. I just made him promise me to let me have fun. When the time came that I wanted to have fun again. But...I got my brother back. He had never left...he'd always been there I just appreciated him more now. I didn't know what it was like without him...but I realized that I need him. I need him....I always will ,and I love him. He's my brother and I don't want him to act like my dad....or my uncle or someone in the gang I've gotten close to after 10 years. He's the only man I CAN trust..and that means more to me then the whole world.

Brooklyn Cade...

The Fair :P

2010-09-12T01:42:00.000-07:00

was sitting in the park with Austin...making out! What else would we be doing!? :P Then a car pulled up. A big, red fancy mustang -.- and someone grabbed me and I started screaming. The covered my mouth and told the person in front to start driving and we took off. Litterally it felt like we were driving 100 mph!! The voice sounded familiar so I looked back and it was Carson. -.- She said, "Hey Brock!" with a big smile in her face. She let me go and got in the front next to Blair. -.- I went off on them asking what the hell was going on!? Crap like that. They told me to shut the hell up and enjoy the ride. I put my seatbelt on...cause with them and a car...it NEVER turns out ok. I sat back and thought about Austin.,"Wait Car! what about...!?" "Kid calm down you really think lover boy would give you up that easy???" she interupted, "He knew about it the whole time! Now shut up or I swear I'll come back there and beat the living shit out of you!!!!" I frowned and sat back in the seat and asked where we were going then Blair just turned on the music really loud. I kicked the back of her seat and she spead up. I flew forward and smacked my head on the back of the seat. Her and Carson started cracking up. I fake laughed. They told me to lighten up and they also told me I needed a break from Austin. I agreed. I spend like everday with him. Not a bad thing(: ,but I need to get out more :P Blair sped up and ran the redlight. "Fuck!" Blair said, I cracked up and she looked in her mirror and smiled. ,"Glad I can make ya laugh kid" I nodded my head and smiled and kept laughing. "That's like the 49944590890 redlight you've run today dumbass!! your gonna get your license taken away!"
Carson pretended to scream like an old lady. "I'd like to see them fuckers try to take away my "license" " Blair fake scoffed and started laughing. We pulled into a parking lot...field thing and got out. We went to the fair(: Always fun there right!? Of course!! We snuck in and then me and Car saw a clown with a bunch of balloons. I tapped Blair on the shoulder and asked her to go get me a balloon. She looked at me real wierd. Your not five Brook! she smirked. I looked at her with a blank stare. ,"Just go get her the balloon or she'll start crying!" I looked at Carson and she smiled and I rolled my eyes. Blair laughed and went over to the clown...she didn't know it was a clown cause he was hidden behind the bundle of balloons. She tried to take one without him noticing and he turned around and said, "Hey!!! You want a balloon!??!" practically screamin! xD she flipped out and ran!! We were laughing our asses off so fucking hard that tears were rolling down our cheeks. She calmed down and we went on a bunch of rides and got food. mmm...carnival food. :P Then we sat down on some bench and they asked me why I was a virgin...I looked at them with a blank stare. Blair raised her eyebrows questioningly. I said,"....idk..I just am?" They know I don't like talking about it. "Aww she's scared" Carson laughed. Blair laughed with her. ,"I'm not scared Carson..." "Yea? then why?" I didn't answer. I just shoved my food away from me and got up and walked away. "Wait! Brook come back we were joking!!!" I just put my hands in my pockets and kept walking. A tear rolled down my cheek. Blair caught up to me and said sorry. I looked at her ,"We were joking kid! calm down..it's ok" she smiled and put her arm around me. I smiled only so she'd think I forgave her. I was still pissed they brought it up. I smiled real big when I was something I liked. "Hey! how bout we go on the ferris wheel!?" "sure..why not?" She said sarcastically. I rolled my eyes and made her stand in line. ,"Blair! I gotta pee hold our place I'll be right back!!!" "We're almost to the front just hold it!!!" "Sorry! I can't" I said running away. She shook her head and yelled at me to hurry. I nodded my head and ran back to the front where I was the clown. I looked around for a minute and saw him. I ran up to him ,"Hello little girl want a big pink balloon".."....no?" I said with a questioned pissed look on my face. "But I need you to do something for me! that ok!?" he said yea and I whispered in his ear. He laughed and said ok....I ran back and Blair was in front. "Take long enough!?" "Sorry!! I really had to go!" I said defensivelly. She said fine and our seat came down. She sat down and right when the guy was about to put the belt thing to keep us in down. I got up and ran away from it and the clown sat down by her and the guy shut the clamp thing and started the Ferris wheel!!! "I'M GONNA FUCKING KILL YOU BROOKLYN CADE!!!!!!!" She was so pissed and all I could do was laugh my ass off. I fell to the ground and started laughing so hard. I felt like I was about to die. Then I swear the best thing happend in my intire life! It broke down and they were at the top. I started laughing harder and a couple greasers from school asked what was up. I pointed to Blair at the top and they started cracking up too. The clown was messing with her hair and she was cussing me out so bad. I just kept laughing. I stopped long enough to ask them a favor. They laughed and said "Sure!!" sounding real pleased by the favor I wanted. We walked around a little looking for carson. She was by the dunk tank trying to knock some soc in the water. I heard her say "Fuck it!" then go up and press the button and make the kid fall it. I pointed to her and my friends went and grabbed her and threw her in the water! I ran up to them and gave them a hug and said thanks and smiled. She tried to get out but slipped and fell bakc in and got in a fight with the soc. Then got kicked out. "Brook!!" I heard someone call my name I turned around and saw Austin(: I ran and jumped in his arms and smiled. "Hey babe!!" I said really happy! He asked what I was doing alone. I said ,"Oh! well I was with some..." Then I saw Blair and told him we had to go! "Brook! Im gonna kill you!!" she started running to wards me and him. I grabbed his hand and ran to his car and left!! We went to a restaurant. We saw Johnny, James, Two-bit, and Kitty outside so we all went in and talked and ate and crap. We skipped out on the tab. When we were driving away the waitress came out yelling , "You filthy greasers!!!" we were all cracking up.

Ahh the fair!! so much can happen there! Good times!! ;)

!~Brookie~!

Unforgettable

2010-09-04T14:09:00.000-07:00

The feeling of being wieghtless is unexplainable. Unexplainable until you feel the whole world on your shoulders. I saw a bright light then a nothing...

I didn't know where I was...someone calling my name ,but I couldn't get to them. Something or someone was stopping me.

I woke up...laying down in a field. Green, sparkly, sharp blades of grass. Blue, Bright, smooth sky like I've never seen it before. I remembered this feeling...the wieghtless one. I kept hearing my name..."Brook, Brookie, please come back we need you" I looked up and saw a girls face in the sky. It faded away and I knew she was close to me..but I didnt recognize her. I layed there a second and sat up. A butterfly came by me and landed on my nose. I giggled and stood up...I stumbled back to the ground. This old women helped me up..I remebered her. It was my grandma. She died 3 months ago. I took her hand and hugged her. Big, long, hug. I missed her. I missed her hugs. I would always go to her house when I was little. She'd make me cookie's. Warm, chocolate chip cookies with a tall glass of milk. She would tell me stories about when she was a kid. A group of butterflys flew around us. I smiled and was happy. She pulled away from me and I asked her what she was doing. It wasn't her. The blue sky was gray and rain was pouring down. The group of butterflys were now misquitos. I felt stinging through out my body. The kid, a teenager around my age , nice clothes, a smirk on his face...three boys were behind him. All I wanted to do was cry ,but I couldn't, I looked at the sky rain running down the sides of my cheeks. I was soaked ,but he was clean, dry..,greedy. The boy took my hand and I stepped back. He held on tighter. I looked up at him, thoughts went through my mind. I was balling. He picked me up, I squirmed trying to get out of his hold ,but he was too strong. He kept squeezing me..tighter and tighter, dropped me to the ground and kicked mud in my face. A pain went shooting through my body. The rain had stopped now ,but I was in a forest. I heard giggles. I stepped back and looked around real cautious. I felt a nudge on the back of my leg then a growl. I looked back and saw a lion. My eyes got real big. He circled me ,but didnt hurt me. I reached my hand out to pet him and it growled again so I took my hand back. He came up real close to me and nudged my hand. I started petting him. His mane was so soft. It was beautiful ,and it blew in the wind. I smiled. He disapeared so I started walking. I came out of the forest into this body of water. A lake. Trees on both sides...and a small boat where I was standing I got in and went along the lake..not rowing the boat. It felt like someone was pushing me. I heard my name again ,but in whispers this time, "Brook..Brookie are ya there? We need you come back" The boat started rocking...then it went into a tunnel and I saw a bright flash. I was laying in a bed staring at a white ceiling. My head was pounding and my body ached. Johnny and Dawn were standing over me. Johnny's hand was on my arm while Dawn brushed my hair out of my face. I've never seen them smiling so big. Never not even when we were kids. There cheeks were red with tears running down their cheeks ,"I thought we lost you Brook" Dawn said. I just kept wondering what had happend. Johnny told me that I had fallen at cheer practice. When I got thrown up they didn't catch me and I hit my head and passed out. The doctor came in my room. He was talking to Johnny and Dawn. There was a knock on the door and the doctor said they could come in. It was Austin and Kyle came in the room. I smiled real big and austin gave me kiss and told me to never scare him like that again. Apparently Kyle was there when I fell. Him, Mark, and Dallas (big surprise). He said, "Hey Broc, you ok!? You hit your head pretty hard." I said yea real quiet. The doc made em leave. She told me I'd get out in a day or two. She also said to be careful and don't be too active or I'd have to come back in. Dawn was getting tired and asked Johnny to take her home. She gave me a hug and said, I'll see ya tomorrow kid love ya."" He took her home then came back up. I thought he would. I know him well enough to just leave me in the hospital by myself. He came back over to me and smiled. I said "what?" He laughed. and said ,"I don't know. I just think it's funny how much we fight and I could've lost you like that" he snapped, I looked at his fingers then looked back up at him. "I love you Brook we might fight a lot ,but don't forget that. Your my sister I wouldn't give you up for anything." My eyes got all watery and He wiped them away..I smiled and he gave me a hug and told me to get some sleep ,and I passed out

~Brooklyn Cade~

Giddy as Fuck

2010-08-21T22:55:00.000-07:00

So...I went to the mall with Johnny, Soda, and Kit. We ate breakfast at some place. Then we went to the pet store and there were the cutest animals I've ever seen there! I swear. I think even the snakes looked cute. :P There was this one little puppy. She was the cutest thing I've ever seen. I went up to the desk to ask this guy Simone how much she was. He said $500. I looked at Johnny real innocent. He said no right away. I pleaded and pleaded but he didn't change his mind. Johnny and Soda had to pretty much drag me out of the store to get me to go home. To try and cheer me up we went and got snow cones ,and when that didn't they threw them at me. Then Kit put hers down my shirt ,and well...it was a mess. I threw mine at her and it hit soda in the face and he threw his. It turned out to be pretty fun. I still kept thinking about the dog though. We all went home and took showers and everything. I was pretty worn out so I passed out on my bed. I woke up to something nipping me in the nose and a small yelp. It didn't hurt that bad...,but it was surprising. I opened my eyes. and I screamed real loud. I was so happy!! It was the puppy from the store! I picked her up and ran into Johnny's room and started jumping on his bed and screaming name to wake him up. He did then tripped me and I fell. :P He asked what the hell I was doing waking him up so early! I said thank you and hugged him. He shoved me off. He asked what for. Then he saw the dog and said. "Oh yea! Soda dropped him off last night" I was shocked "It's a girl Johnny" "Oh sorry I forgot. Soda dropped HER off lastnight. Happy?" "Very!" He told me I was so passed out Soda put her on my bed and she layed down and fell asleep :3

I threw on some close and put my hair in a pony tail then ran over to his house. It was like 9 a.m. still but I didn't care! I picked her up and ran. I opened the door and Soda was sitting on the couch with Katie. I looked at him in shock still and he smiled real big. I didn't know what to say! I was so happy!!! He asked if I liked it. "You kidding?! She's the cutest thing I've ever seen I love her Soda thank you so much!!" I asked him why he even bought me her though. He told me I looked like I was gonna cry when we left the store. I gave him a huge hug. It's like the best present I've ever gotten. I must have been screaming cause Pony, Kit, and Darry all came out. Darry and Kit were pretty pissed that I woke them up. Pony didn't care haha. Neither did I! I was too happy to care! Katie looked at me and asked what I was gonna name her. I held her up and looked at her face. I said Cupcake and smiled real big. Pony said, "I don't think Johnny's gonna like that name Brooks" I looked at him with a I lightley hit him in the face "I don't think it's his dog Pony so I don't care." I played with her all morning! Thank You Soo much! I'm still so happy!!(: I'll post more about her later!!!!!:D

<--- My Cuppy Cake :3 <3

"Im ur bestie that should count for something"

2010-08-04T22:31:00.000-07:00

My Bestie!! My ~~Girl!!~~ The Person who has been my Bestie since Kindergarden!! The one the only Alexandra Jamie Mathews. Here's 10 things I love about James (:

(!0) How your not afraid to tell somebody you hate them.

(9) You have a ~~big mouth~~ and aren't afraid to correct someone (:

(8) If someone hurts me you'll happily be there to kick their ass into the ground *death threats to my ex 's ;)*

(7) The times when we hangout, we eat so much ~~we feel like we're gonna puke~~...,but we just keep eating.
(6) When I'm sad you know what to do to make me laugh nonstop!

(5) How much you care for my brother and don't wanna hurt him (:

(4) Our days we can't speak of ;)

(3) Our girls only ~~movie~~ nights ;)

(2) How you WANT to go to college to "prove" to the gang your more than just a greaser , you inspire me(:

(!) We fight, and we say we hate eachother, and we act like we don't need eachother, but I love you. The first day we met we clicked, then five minutes later we tore eachothers hair out cause we took eachothers Barbie <3 haha. Your not my best friend cause to you that's demeaning. Your my sister. If I lose you I'll die. Your my rock sholder , and I know you'll always be there when I need you.

...So Here's to the ~~Crap~~ we talk...the Guys we stalk,
The Way we shop...and to Laughs we can't Stop,
The Gossip we spill...the Looks that could Kill,
We'll Stay Together Cause We're Sisters Forever <3

Sammy and the Wedding :P

2010-07-30T21:25:00.000-07:00

You all know how I've got a new brother and what happend when I met him. I do not have a problem with him. I was just shocked when I met him ,and my dad was there..with his new wife? I didn't expect to have a new brother that day. I didn't mean to hurt him ,and I felt bad. I wanted a second chance with him. so the other day I went up to him and I told him I was sorry for what I did when I first met him. He said it was fine. I asked him if we could hangout sometime. He told me no and walked off. I must of made a wierd look on my face cause Johnny asked me what was wrong. I told him that Sam didn't like me..or didn't wanna talk to me. I have no idea what I did to that boy. He wouldn't tell Johnny why though so I'd have to talk to him by myself..like that'll happen. :P So I knocked on Sam's door and went in and asked him how he was doing here..ya know the usually stuff you say when you talk to your step brother that just moved in??? He told me he didn't want to talk to me. I said, "Ok fine, I'll leave you alone...,but not until you tell me why." So he told me why...and it was a good reason I guess..in a way ,but it wasn't clicking in my head. I asked him if we could hangout sometime. He said sure. So this morning when I got up. I saw Sam sitting on the couch watching cartoons with PeterPan Peanutbutter on a spoon..and the jar on the coffee table. I yawned real big and he said "Hey, sup sis?" It made me smile cause even though he's my step brother he's still my brother. I said "Nothin special". I got a spoon and got peanut butter on it and sat down by him and asked what he was watching. He said "Phineas and Ferb. You like it?" I said "Are you kidding? It's like the bestest show ever!!" We watched that show like the whole morning. We also ate like almost the whole jar of peanut butter. :P So Johnny when you go to the store..you need to buy some more. The show was on like five times...then something else came on. I didn't feel like watching it so we just started talking. He told me how he was good at football and was gonna try out for the team. I told him how I was a cheerleader. He said I would possibly be chearing for him sometime. I started laughing. We talked for a while about how our parents were never there for us..and how much we didn't need them. I actually started crying at one point. He put his arm around me and told me there out of our lives now. I said yea I know just get..weary? when I think about that. He said ok. I went to get ready for the wedding. I went to talk to Johnny first though. I told him how me and Sam are good now. I'm still not completely used to the idea of having another brother...but I'll attach as time goes on(:. I got ready for the wedding did my hair, but on my dress, did my nails. I heard someone at the door so I opened it up and it was Austin(: He said,"Hey baby you look beautiful" then took my hand and spun me around lol. Soph came over and her and Sam rode with me and Austin to the wedding and the after party. Wich by the way was fantastic. I didn't get drunk..but drank like one or two glasses of wine. Me and Austin danced a lot ;) Then we went in some corner where nobody saw us and made out a little while haha. Cherry was there. I didn't pay much attention to her..until she came up to me and started shit. Telling me how she was going to be the head cheerleader again and my whiny little ass could get over it. I was about to slap her in the face but Two-bit and Steve pulled me away from her. Dallas just said how he wanted to see two chicks fighting so I took my anger out on him and slapped him in the face and just walked away. I saw all the guys laughing when I looked back. Then Dallas winked at me and I rolled my eyes. That boy is waay to cocky sometimes. I went over and hung out with my girls the rest of the night. By the time the party was over...half of our gang was drunk ,but hey it's a good show xP.

Congrats Tiffany and Andrew...have a happy life...blah blah blah.

~Brookie Cade(:

Just a little more pracitce?

2010-07-06T16:33:00.000-07:00

Dallas taught me to fight. I mean I could before...but terribly. He taught me how to punch and block or something like that. He told me cause I'm so small it would help alot.

I was walking to the Brumley's house. To go see Austin. Usually he picks me up in his car or walks with me there. I didn't call cause my phone was dead and I couldn't use Johnny's or Dawn's cause they were gone. So I just started walking. It's been so long since somethings happend to me. I've had someone with me like ever since that one soc that Dar used to hang out with kidnapped me ):. So I was just walking minding my own buinsness when a soc's truck pulls up by me. It doesn't matter if your minding your own buisness, they'll still jump you. So like four socs get out of the car. I figured I was gonna get jumped again. One took out there blade and took part of my hair. I tried to pull away but he just held on tighter. It's hard to think when your surrounded by socs ,but I was tryin to remember what Dal taught me. One guy was standing behind me so I couldn't run. So I elbowed him in the gut and punched the guy in the face who had the switch out. Then I kicked the other guy in the gut. I knew I couldn't take four socs. When I was kicking him the last soc took my leg and knocked me to the ground. I fell and my face and it started bleeding. One of the socs sat ontop of me and cut my cheek. The two other guys picked me up and threw me in the back of there truck and handcuffed me to the side bar. My side hurt so bad from landing in the truck. It was so hot out and when they started driving the truck the wind blew in my face. It felt good. We were on the southside now. I think we were going to there hideout. I dindn't know what I was gonna do. I was scared. My hair kept blowing in my face and it was bothering me. I got out a bobby pin and tried to put it in my hair. I couldn't so I just threw it..after I did that I realized that I could probly get the hand cuffs undone. I found another one in my pocket and tried to undo the handcuffs. I couldn't at first but I did it again and undid them. He took a sharp turn and I slid across the back and ran into a broken metal pipe. It cut my side and tried not to scream to loud when it happend but it hurt so bad. I got up and fell back down cause my side hurt so bad. My shirt was all bloody cause of the cut. Tears were starting to roll down my cheeks and I figured it would get worse if I stayed here. I got on the outside of the truck holding onto it so I wouldn't fall. The truck was going so fast. I was scared. We were driving past the park so I tried to jump into the grass. I jumped off the truck and hit the ground and started rolling. I hit my head on a big rock. I could feel my head bleeding. Blood was running down my cheek. I couldn't get up no matter how hard I tried so I just layed there. It was dark out and I knew I wasn't gonna make it home. I was to far away and I didn't even know where I was. I wasn't gonna try to get home either. I woke up the next morning. My side was hurting so bad. My shirt was all bloody and I didn't know how I was gonna get home so I just layed there adnd closed my eyes. I heard someone call my name. It was Kyle! He turned. He said "What the hell happend to you!?" I told him what the socs did. Him and Caleb were there. Kyle picked me up and started carrying me back to his house. My head was laying on his shoulder. Austin pulled up in his car and saw me, Caleb, and Kyle. He jumped out of the car and took me from Kyle. I moaned cause my side hurt so bad. I felt like I was hit by a truck. I was in so much pain. I just wanted to sleep so it would go away for a little. We all got in the car and Austin was holding me the whole time. He was driving but he can do both.we got back to his house. He layed me down on his bed. He lifted up my shirt and saw my side. There was a big gash in it from the pipe. Blood all over my side. He got a wash rag and said "This is gonna hurt a little." He put the rag on my side and I grabbed his arm real tight. There was alcohol on it and it just put me in more pain so he just wiped it off with water...he gave me one of his shirts. He helped me put it on and I layed down by him. My head was on his chest. He told me he was gonna find the socs who hurt me and kill them. He said nobody messes with his girl. It made me get that butterfly feeling in my stomach. It was the only thing that made me happy right then.

~Brooklyn Cade~

P.S. ~ Mark is so hot!! I promised him I would put it in here. :P

Brumley's House XD

2010-06-18T21:56:00.000-07:00

Johnny and James went to the beach for a couple of days so I just stayed at the Brumley's for those nights. Johnny doesn't trust me home alone. Even though I'm like the only greaser you can trust home alone. But a chance to go to Austin's house? I'll always take it. I called Elena and she said she was already there cause she fell off her roof? God knows why in the hell that poor child was up there...I don't know. So I told Dawn and she told me that Bri and Candie were gonna meet us there. So we left with our stuff cause we slept there. We walked up the steps and rang the doorbell. We heard a bunch of people yell "Come In!!" so we did. Dawn said hey and took her stuff to Caleb's room. I went over and kissed Austin. I went up to his room and threw my stuff on his bed. I came back out and sat on the floor by his feet. He started messing with my hair while watchin the game. I asked what they were doing. Andrew replied "hockey" with his eyes glued on the tv. I don't know crap about sports ,but I watched it anyway pretending like I did. Dawn started talkin about how Candie is bringing Melon Tequila. I don't drink though so I didn't listen. I looked up at Austin though. He shook his head and mouthed "no". I smiled and turned back around. Dawn asked if they were getting high or something. I wasn't listening. Candie and Bri got there and brought the tequila and the other stuff. Kyle took the weed out of his pocket. I told him to take it outside cause it smells bad. He said "Ok mam." in a smart voice. I did a smartass smile at him and he laughed. He smacked Elena in the face with a pillow and she woke up real quick. Everybody started laughing and she went outside with Kyle, Andrew, Caleb, Dawn, Candie ,and Bri. Austin got up and I asked him what he was doing in a shocked voice. He said "Calm down babe. I'm laying down on the couch come with me." I went over and layed down on him. We figured it wouldn't be too long before they started drinking. So we watched some movie till they did. Austin's arm fell down and came back up. I didn't know what the hell he was gonna do. He sprayed me with a ton of whip cream. I took the can and sat on top of him and sprayed it all over his face. I ran in the kitchen and went in the fridge and found some cherries. I started to open the jar but Austin came up behind me and spun me around. I got one out and put it on his nose. I said "perfecet" and flashed my teeth at him. he sarcastically said "hahaha" and kissed me. It was wierd cause whip cream got everywere. He got the rest off my face ,but not with a rag XD He took my hand and opended the front door. Nobody noticed we left cause Kyle and Elena were laughing at nothing and Dawn and Bri were singing "Stacey's Mom". I saw somebody collecting leaves...I looked at Austin and we busted up laughing. He took my hand and we started walking down the street. It was really dark out and the street lights weren't on. I heard a car engine. I looked back and saw a souped up mustang coming down the street. I gripped onto Austin's shirt and looked at him. He held me close and told me not to worry. Four socs got out of the car. Two went for Austin and two came for me. One of the guys grabbed the others shirt and brought him back and whispered into his ear while he was looking at me. Austin told me to hold on to him and not let go. I wasn't gonna let go for my life. They started stepping towards us slowly and I tightened my grip. They two guys who went for Austin started running. they knocked him over and the other two socs tried to get me. Austin got up and knocked out the socs. This is were cheerleading comes in handy. They ran toward me and grabbed onto my shirt. I did a round off and took Austin's hand and we started running. We stopped on a corner and looked back and he said "Come with me." I kissed him and we started running again. The socs were pretty far behind us so we went into this alley. It was cramped in there so we were close ;) We heard some socs run by and I gasped and he covered up my mouth so they couldn't hear us. I started to look out of the alley and one of the socs hit me in the head. I fell to the ground in a puddle of water and started crying. I was soaking wet. Austin stepped over me. I didn't see much cause I blacked out. I did hear the socs getting their asses kicked though The last thing I remember was him picking me up and carrying me back to his house. I woke up when we were back at the house cause I heard people screaming outside....old people haha. Austin let me use some of his clothes. That was some of the baggiest shit I've ever worn! But it was cozy (: I heard Somebody screaming back and a door slam. I had a terrible headache cause of the soc hitting me in the head. I couldn't go back to sleep so I just layed down by Austin. I eventually fell asleep. I woke up on the couch by myself...I got up and went in the kitchen and saw Austin. I went over to him and he put his arm around me and kissed me. I blushed and smiled. It was a fun night. I wanna do it again.

~~Cookie Mawnsta Cade~~

Home Sick

2010-06-03T00:09:00.000-07:00

I was walking down the street the other day. I walked by the park and sat on a bench. I saw a family there. One like mine. A brother, two younger sisters, and two parents. Not exactley like mine, but close enough. It always made me sad to think about stuff like that. The family at the park...they...they were good. They looked nice. They were middle class. The mom and dad were pushing their daughter and son on the swings. Their other little girl came running over to them and tripped and skinned her knee. I quickly got up off the bench and stopped myself. The dad picked up his daughter and held her close and looked at me like I was crazy to think I was gonna help her up. I mean yea I'm a greaser. People can tell, but I wasn't going to go over there and rape the poor child. The mom put a bandaid on the kids knee she stopped crying and ran off to play with her brother and sister. The parents looked at me. I sat there and thought. I thought about my...old life. swinging on the swings with Johnny and Dawn. Fresh, Ice cold lemonade made by mom. Dad putting a bandaid on my scraped knee...or maybe I remembered our parents acctually caring for us. The parents were talking now and giving me dirty looks. I gave them one back and walked off. I couldn't get the idea of home out of my mind. I walked past the curtis' house. I saw Johnny, Twobit, and Dallas outside. They asked me were I was going and I just shrugged. I knew. I just didn't want to tell them. My old house wasn't far from the Curtis'. I didn't want anyone knowing though. I opened the gate to the backyard. The same old swings were still there. The porch looked duller than ever but I liked it like that. That's how it's always been. The swing's chains were all rusty. Nobody's been on it in years. Not that I remember anyway. There were small blood stains by the door of the porch from when we all fell when we were little. I probably shouldn't have been so close to the house were I was treated so badly ,but I felt like I needed to be there at that moment. I walked off the porch over to the swing set. I ran my fingers over the cold metal handels on the top of the slide. I sat down on a swing. It made a creaking noise because it was so old. I lifted my feet of the ground and started to swing. I kept swinging till I felt a cold hand on my sholder. I gasped and turned around. It was my mom. She still had that cold mean stare in her eye. She screamed "MIKE! GET OUT HERE! SHE'S BACK!" I don't know why the hell they wanted my back. My dad...he was mean. His hands were cold and when he slaps you it's even colder. I didn't want to see his face again. When Johnny told us we were leaving I packed up without a moments hesitation. He slammed open the back door and gave me that evil glare. I got a tear in my eye. I wanted to scream but I couldn't. My mom said "See I told you she'd come back if I told them you were dead!" and her grip tightend. I wanted them to change, I wanted them to be proud of me that I could do a backflip and acctually land it unlike most of the cheerleaders. There parents were just proud that they tried to land it! Not mine though. All they cared about was getting drunk and high. I snapped back "Why the hell would I come back for you?! I hate you two! You never cared for me! All you care about is your booze and cigs!!!" my mom slapped me across the face and told me to never disrespect them like that agian. I said "I'll stop when you will!" with a smirk on my face and beat it outta there! I didn't bother opening the gate. I jumped the fence. I tripped though from some stupid branch from that stupid oak tree that died so long ago. My mom got her broom that she was laying outside on the cround and started smacking me with it. The bristles on my face hurt like hell. I was screaming at her to stop. She screamed back "How do ya like that?! You like bein disrespected?" her voice raised. "DO YA!?" I shoved the broom out of my face and booked it. I ran all the way to the Curtis' house and ran into Dallas. He said "whoa kid whats up!?" I didn't say anything. I was in shock then and gave him a hug. I know you don't hug Dallas unless you either hooking up with him, or dating him. I wasn't doing either. Then again nobody hugs Dallas. The only person I ever remember hugging him is Bri ,but that's it. He pulled me back by my shoulders and saw my face. I wasn't crying just shocked. One side of my face was red from my mom slapping me. The other and my arms were redish whiteish cause of the broom. Johnny ran down the steps and asked what happend. my voice was shaky all I managed to say was "mom...broom." His face went pale and I started balling. I fell to the ground and I couldn't get up. He knelt down beside me and gave me a hug. We went over and sat on the steps. Dawn came out and looked at me. She halfed smiled and brushed my hair outta my eyes and said "How ya doin kid?" in a sweet gentle voice. I put my head on her shoulder and looked at the sunset. Johnny put his head on my shoulder. I put my arm around his neck and he put his arm around my shoulder. Dawn put her head on top of mine. I know sometimes we don't act like it ,but we're a family. I'll always be there for you cause I know you'll always be there for me. I love you guys!

Brooklyn Cade

Belly Button Ring!!!

2010-05-23T17:34:00.000-07:00

Ok I finally talked Johnny into letting me get my belly button pierced. I knew it was gonna hurt getting a needle stabbed through your skin so I brought Kit with me. I decided to get the heart with the diamond cause your not supposed to get a dangly one the first time or something. Kit picked me up at my house yesterday and we went to the piercing place. I really wanted one but I was scared. We sat in the waiting room then someone called us back. Kit asked me if I wanted her to come back I said yea in a low voice and she laughed a little. I rolled my eyes and we went into the room. I looked at the piercing/doctor person whatever and it was Sean's dad!!! I was surprised to see him. He rememberd me from when we were dating and asked how I was doing? I said good and I layed down on the chair. He had to make sure the area around my belly buttton was clean so it wouldn't get infected right off. He put on gloves and wiped a sponge around it with alcohol and then wiped it off again so it wouldn't sting when I got it. He marked where it was going to be with a marker and said "You ready?" I looked at Kitty and she held out her hand. I took it and He pierced it. It hurt...bad. I'm glad I got it though. He gave me some solution stuff to clean it with for the next couple of months. In the morning, at night, and whenever else I need it. We went to the front desk and I paid for it and we went back to the house. Kit's house. Everybody was there. I had my shirt up. I always have it like that for cheer so I'm used to it! Everybody looked at me and looked at my stomach. Twobit was the first to crack a joke. I rolled my eyes and went over to Pony he said "Sexy!" I laughed and kissed him and he put his arm around me. Everybody liked it. I don't know if Dallas liked it cause I had my shirt half off...most likely. Darry wasn't for it in the first place and Johnny didn't like it that much either but said yes so I would shut up. So they just went in the kitchen and talked. It hurt a little so I went in the bathroom and put the stuff on it to help with the pain. I went back out and sat on Pony's lap and he put his arm around my waist.
I am happy I finally got one! I've been wanting one for so long! Thank you Kit for Being there for me! I love you!

~Cookie Monster

True Colors

2010-05-20T15:07:00.000-07:00

Me, Pony, and Johnny went to go get icecream the other day. But things went wrong. The socs came!! It's never good when they do. They started messing with us. They punched and kicked Johnny. I started balling and the socs tied me up and put a bag over my head. They did the same with Pony and put us in their trunk. They took the bags off our heads and we saw Brian? We were in their hangout I guess. It was a Coke factory, and old Coke factory. One of the guys told Brian to get Pony! I was scared...the socs are strong. Like really strong. Not that Pony isn't but he was tied up and out of breath from having no room in the trunk. Me and Pony were sitting on the ground and Pony said "Punch me soc!" So Brian did. Hard. I gasped and then Brian started kicking Pony in the face and the stomach. I couldn't tell if Pony was gonna cry but I was and screaming at him to stop! The socs jerked me back by the rope that kept my hands together and that made me crie harder. Brian cut the rope that had Pony's hands together and bent his arm back! He was on the ground and Brian stepped on his fingers. I could feel the hot tears running down my cheeks. Pony was laying there with blood all over his face with Brian's shoe mark on his shirt. He was just standing there looking at Pony. I was scared cause one of the socs said I was next. I jerked my head and I looked at him and he gave me a devilish grin that made a chill go up my spine. Brian said he doesn't hit girls. He said he didn't either. He told Brian to kiss me. That's the last thing I wanted to do! I hated him for doing that to Pony makin him watch while he kissed me was gonna make it worse! Brandon or something said me and Pony were love birds and it would torture him. Brian came over to me and whispered real gently in my ear "I'm sorry." I felt a tear run down my cheek. It was hot like all the others but it felt worse this time. He put is hand on my back and around my neck and kissed me. I heard the other guys start laughing. It was torture kissing him. The only one I want to think about kissing is Ponyboy Curtis. I love him. The first time he ever kissed me was like magic and I was seven! It felt like forever when he was kissing me. I wanted it to end. I wanted to be safe at home in Pony's arms. I wanted him to tell me everything was going to be ok. I mostly wanted Pony to kiss me and tell me he loved me. One of the socs took out his switch and cut the rope and when the blade hit it, it cut my wrists. I fell to the ground and started crying. A door slammed open and it was the gang. The socs took off. I didn't look up but I knew it was them cause I heard Soda's voice. He sounded so pissed. I knew he hated Bob. I know now that he will forever more hate all socs. He came over to me and tilted my head up and looked at my wrists. He didn't have an expression on his face just gave me a hug and told me everything was going to be all right. Darry and Steve were helping Pony up. He wasn't unconscious but looked really bad. Kitty came out with a rag from a bath room and wiped off my wrists. It hurt really bad and I started crying. She stopped and hugged me and told me that we were gonna get them back and not to worry. It was hard not to worry about getting jumped after its happend so many times. I went over to Pony and hugged him. I didn't let go and I wasn't going to anytime soon. He kissed me on the head and a tear rolled down my cheek and I told him I loved him. He said I love you too Brooklyn Cade. I smiled put my arms around his back. He put his hand's around my neck and kissed me for the longest time I can ever remember. Nobody broke us up this time and told us to stop. They always cared but this time they cared more. I laid my head down on his chest and kept my arms around him. There was still blood on his face. He started to fall and Darry caught him. He passed out. I started balling again Kit and Dawn came over by me and hugged. We were at the hospital the doctor said that he passed out because of all the blood loss. He was fine though. They took care of him and we went home. I didn't wanna go home tonight. Soda carried Pony in to his bed and I layed down by him and started crying hoping he was going to be ok. My head was on his chest and I could hear him breathing. It was soothing and I fell asleep. I woke up a little later around the same time Pony did. He smiled and kissed me put his arms around me and told me everything was ok. That's all I wanted was to hear his voice. I was facing him and both of us fell asleep. I was happy and I was safe in my guy's arms.

Belly Button Ring!!!!!!

2010-05-17T18:34:00.000-07:00

Ok so I want to get my belly button peirced but I can't decide on what I should get. I figured you guys could help me!?

here's the first one.

here's the second one.

here's the thired one.

here's the fourth one.

I need your help guys! If you needs more to pick from tell me but these are the ones I like the best.

Prom!!!

2010-05-15T12:20:00.000-07:00

Last night was prom! It was so much fun! Me and Pony went and since Brayden is on a surfing tour Jamie went with Carson lol! Me and James spent the whole night at my house getting ready. We heard a car outside and I did my happy squealy thing that apparently is so fucking hilarious!!! Jamie started lauging and I shot her a death glare. She tried to stop but couldn't so what ever lol! Anyway we heard a knock at the door. Since Carson doesn't do dresses she was wearing a tux. Me and James started laughing really hard at that then Pony came in a gave me a kiss on the cheek. I blushed and smiled. He took out a small box it had a crasoge in it. It had blue flowers and one small white rose on it. Carson got one for James too but it wasn't real cause I don't think that black rose's are real lol! Pony put it on my wrist and I gave him a kiss. We got to the school and were stopped at the door to show them our tickets. We all met Cristy there and met her boyfriend. He's really nice! A limo pulled up and four socs got out. It was Sean, Vance, and their dates. I almost started crying but I looked at Pony and he made me happy. I didn't need someone who was going to hurt me around. Vance looked at me like anyone else would. Like I was trash. Sean came over to me and asked if we could talk. I looked at everyone and said sure. We sat on the brick wall by the entrance to the school. He said he was sorry for what he did to me. He never ment to hurt me and felt terrible. I told him it was a little late for an apology. He said he knew but asked if we could still be friends. "Maybe at some point down the road we can. I love Ponyboy but I still haven't completley gotten over what you did to me." He said he was sorry again. I told him that at one point we could be friends. He smiled and I did back he kissed me on the cheek and left. I went over to Pony and he asked what that was about I shrugged and said nothing and gave Pony a kiss. A long kiss to show that I loved him and didn't want Sean back. He smiled and we walked in to the school. The principal saw Carson and didn't look happy. Our principal is nice but she didn't and I guess still doesn't like Carson. We went into the gym...there was a path way leading outside. We went and danced a while lol. Pony took put his arm around my waist and we went outside. We got a drink and sat on one of the benches that was under a gazibo. It was covered with lights and had flowers around it. When me and Pony broke up I gave him back his ring that said I love you on it. I had forgotten about it until now. He pulled it out and put in on my finger! I smiled and gave him long kiss. There were speakers outside. A slow song started and he held out his hand and we started dancing. I felt like I was in a dream at that moment. You always see it in movies but you never think that you'll be the one it happens too. The song ended a couple minutes later and I lookd down at the ring. Pony could tell how happy I was. He always can. He picked me up and swung me around and gave me a kiss. We went back inside to see that ATL was playing. I ran over to James and Cris and started dancing. Carson was hanging out with some of her old friends who didn't drop out. Pony and Cris' Bf were talking too. The dance ended at 12:00 but this time none of us lost a glass slipper, our clothes didn't turn into rags, and the car didn't turnn into a pumpkin. I did get my prince though. It was my Cinderella moment and I was happy!

Brookie<3

2010-05-13T21:12:00.000-07:00

I don't know if I'm going to quit yet. This isn't the Outsider's Blog anymore. I'm not on the tag team but I am taking a break over the summer for sure. If I don't get back on sometime in september then you'll know I quit. or I will post about quitting for sure. I care about you guys I really do but there's a lot of drama. Too much drama. It's all I think about now and when something happens on the chat or we talk about something it's all I think about. Usually it's not a good thing when I think about it. I was on wensday night and it made me feel like crap. I get out of school in 5 and a half days then I'm goin on a trip. I won't be on after that. Not for a while at least.

I'll miss you guys :'(
~Brooks

New York!!!

2010-05-10T07:58:00.000-07:00

Ok first order of buisness! This is to Carson and Dallas especially. Guys! I am not going to leave you! Ok?! I care about all of you and wouldn't leave until you force me away. If I get a chance to skip a grade I will not take it. I scares me to think that one day I will leave Tulsa and go to college. All of you have always been there for me and I don't know what I would do if I lost you. If I do go to college I will come back every semester break. I will come back when the year is over to see you all again. You all got that? I care about you! I'm not letting you go yet!

Second! James you quit cheerleading at a bad time cause we're goin to New York right after out last cheer game thing for a celebration or something. The coach told me I could bring three people with me. I did this randomly so if you can't go I'll just pick the next person in line. Here's who's first, second, third, blah blah blah...
1.James, Pony, Kitty!
2.Dally, Cristy, Soda!
3.Darry, Lilly, Blair!
4.Jonny, Mark, Steve!
5.Twobit, Bri, Carson, Jelly!
That's the order I picked the names. I know that the last group has four people. But I figured some people can pretened they aren't there so everyone can go! Ok say Kitty can't go. Pony would take her place. But then he couldn't go either then Cris would take his place. You guys get how it works? So tell me if you can go or not ok!

Brooks! I love you guys! I would never leave <<3
Oh forgot one thing! The school is paying for the trip! So whoever goes doesn't have to pay!

Scholarship :(

2010-05-09T16:25:00.000-07:00

It's not that I'm not happy about it. Or I was but I didn't wanna leave Tulsa. I didn't wanna leave my family. I didn't wanna leave you guys. I've been with you whole life and wouldn't know what to do if I got in trouble cause you have all been there for me when I was.

About the scholarship to New Jersey...The coach and the person from the college there they came up to me the other day right after practice. They cjuniorhey told me that she got the scholarship instead because she was older and more experienced. I gasped and was kinda surprised that happend to me. I'm a greaser though I've been disapointed my whole life. This was just another bump in the road. I said ok and started to walk away. She was one of my friends from the team so I wasn't going to bitch about it. She pulled me over to the bench and said she was sorry about what happend she was just better.
I said "What!?"
She said "Oh come on! You didn't acctually think you were better than me did you?
"Well! I am the one who got the scholarship in the first place!"
"Yea...but hun..I'm the one who acctually got the scholarship."
She was really pissing me off. She kept saying how she was so much better than me. I finally got so mad I got up and punched her in the face. Then I slapped her head and I got my bag and started to walk out of the gym.
She said "Hold on greaser I'm not done with you!" I felt her pull my ponytail.
Ok you can call me a greaser. You can tell me I'm not worth shit. But touch me and I will personally kick your ass! I dropped my bag. Turned around and kicked her in the stomach and she fell to the ground. I sat on top of her and started punching her in the face. Kit, Bri, and Dal were there. God knows why but I know that they were. They came running over. Dallas and Kit got me off of the bitch who's ass I was kicking. Bri helped her up. I told them to let me go I was fine. They did and I tried to slap the girl in the face again. Dal got me and held me back. The principal ened up seeing the whole thing. I got suspended for four days. Yea I know it's almost the end of the year and I shouldn't be getting suspended. I mean I never have before but I guess it's time I start quicking people's asses instead of getting the shit beat out of me everytime. I left my cheer stuff in the gym locker room cause I didn't feel like carrying it home. I told Dal, Kit, and Bri I'd talk to them later. They said ok and I started running to blow off some steam. I had my music on really loud. I love running and listening to music. It makes me feel better! :P

Brooks <3

Taking a Break

2010-05-02T22:06:00.000-07:00

First of all I'm am in no way quitting! You probably thought that when you saw the title. I am not quitting! I wouldn't do that to you guys. I know we don't know eachother in person but you all are truthfully my best friends. I love and care about all of you. I have like 14 days of school left and my grades aren't all that good. I am taking a break to get them up and stay focused on finishing school in a good way....not bad. I won't be posting for the next couple of weeks. But I will post again. I won't quit unless it is helping the blog. If you want to email me cause that is probably the only way I'm going to me able to get on the computer. But if you want to my email is: sydrox95@yahoo.com. most of you already have it but this is if you don't. And if you do email me as a fan or as a friend please don't send anything about how someone is ruining the blog. Or how I am. When something bad happens on here it's all I can think about. It makes me feel bad and I want to fix it right away. I hate when we fight too. So I'll be back....don't worry it won't be that long....it'll seem like it but I promise it won't. I'll have alot of questions when I get back so be ready for them lol. I'll miss you guys and I love you!

Brooks <3

P.S. if you email me and I don't already have your email put in the subject bar wich blogger you are! I don't want to get a random email, delete it, and not know it was one of you! Thanks guys. I hope the blog is all better by the time I get back! Seeya! <<3

Mickey? Mickey?! OMG! It's Mickey Mouse!

2010-04-30T18:25:00.000-07:00

Everybody remembers Sodapop's horse Mickey Mouse. He loved that him! Then that stupid ass owner sold him :'( Well here goes my rescuer story!

Me and Jamie were walkin home from school, from cheer practice. We were walkin by a field and saw a bunch of horses. I love horses and wanted to see them. There wasn't alot alot! but there were like 10 of em there. We went up to the fence and three horses came by. One was white with brown spots, one was all black...I think it was a stallion. The last one was all brown with a weird mark on its not nose..or whatever it's called. I looked at James
"Jamie! that looks like Mickey!
"Who?? Who is Mickey? Brook have you been getting high?"
"No! that's stupid! I don't get high! but that looks like soda's old horse Mickey Mouse!!!"
"Oh yea! it kinda does!"

The owner came by the fence and told us we had to get off. We said sorry and asked what the horse's name was. He said his name was Mickey Mouse. We gasped! He said the owner I bought him from told me a young kid called him that..so I kept it. I asked if the young guy was kinda...I didn't know how to explain Sodapop to an old guy so I called him...a guy that caught all the girls attention. The old guy thought for a minute....we waited. He said ," YES! Yes that is what I would say!" I took a picture out of my purse and looked at it and looked back to the horse. It looked exactley like Mickey Mouse! I showed the owner and he said yep! that's him! That's the horse and the young fellow who took care of him. I started...well laughing kinda. I mean who would of thought that Mickey was still in Tulsa? I asked if he was still gonna be here? The owner said,"Yep! that's my house right over there." I asked if we could bring our friend by? he said sure! sure anytime! I thanked him and we left. I started running when I saw the DX. Jamie said wait! my legs hurt! I told her I couldn't wait to tell Soda that I found his horse! I kept running but I lost my balance...seems to happen alot....and I fell. I ran right into the gas tank thing and hit the ground. Steve and Jelly came over and helped me up and asked if I was ok...I said yea and ran over to Soda. I yelled his name and he turned around and said hey Brook whats up!? I told him to come with me. He said he couldn't he was working. The boss is like never there so I don't know what was gonna hurt! I wispered in his ear and he said WHAT! Dallas, Cristy, Jamie, Jelly, and Steve all looked at us. I told him to come! He said ok. We were about to get in the car and he asked me to get Jells. I went over and told her to come with us. She asked where we were going. I told her I'd tell her on the way. We got to the farm and I knocked on the guy's door. He cam slowly and opended the it. He said,"Hey! you again! what are you doing here?" I told him that this these were my friends Sodapop and Jelly. He said Oh. your the young fella who took care of my horse arntcha? Soda said I guess so that's what she told me. He said ok! You can see him. We walked through the house out to the barn. Down the stalls and to a pin that said Mickey Mouse. Soda looked so happy! He came around and saw the horse. I really think he was about to cry. The owner let him out of his pin and let us pet him and brush him. Soda couldn't stop smiling. Ralph ,the owner, asked if Soda wanted to ride him? He looked at me and Jelly and we nodded our heads yes! The owner wanted to see if Sodapop still knew what to do. So he did all the work. It took about a good half hour to get Mickey ready but when Soda got on him and started riding it was pretty cool. He came back around and pulled on the reins and the horse went up in the air and came back down! I started laughing litely cause I was so amazed! He asked me if I wanted to ride? I was kinda scared...I didn't want to fall off. But Soda told me to trust him...I did but I wanted Jelly to go first. They rode for about five minutes and then it was my turn. I got up on the horse and put my arms around Soda....again I didn't want to fall. I never rode a horse before but it was really fun! Ralph told us to come back anytime! He told Soda he needed some help around the stable and he would pay him too! Soda said yes I think about a million times. I was so happy for him. He turned to me and said thank you Brook! thank you! I said psht! what was I supposed to do? let him go without his "rightful" owner? never! he laughed and gave me a hug. We all got back in the truck and went home! I was so happy that I found him. I was happier that Mickey Mouse was back!

There's Mickey Mouse!!!

Crazy Night

2010-04-29T16:30:00.000-07:00

Me and Jamie haven't hung out in a REALLY long time! I'm always with Pony....and she's always with Brayden. So! we decided to have a G.N.O! lol. I went over to her house around 7. We ordered our chinese like we always do. We called Johnny to have him get us some icecream. But he was sad so he didn't really want to cause he was upset. So then we called Dallas he didn't want to either. But Jamie said...something to him and he brought it over. It wasn't the kind we wanted...but he said he wasn't going back out to get anymore. So we just dealt with it. He stayed for a while. We talked to him we kinda wanted him to leave or fall asleep so we could put make up on him. He finally left and we watched a bunch of movies. Some old....Some new. Then we got bored. James told me there were bottles of soda in the garage so I went out and got two..one for her and one for me. We chugged them in about 5 minutes. It took about 10 minutes to get us really hyper. Nobody was home so we decided to go out. Not out out. But like around the block.....by the park out. To let our energy down. I needed to practice my backflip cause I was in the hospital for a couple days because of that stupid dog. I got up on the stone wall and did a couple of flips and then on the last one I lost my balance and started to fall. Someone caught me though. I didn't see who cause I had my hands over my face and I was laughing so hard! I looked up to see who had caught me and saw Austin......you know Austin, Brumly Boy Austin. It was him and the other three. I screamed really loud and he dropped me. Then I started laughing harder! They tried to shut me up. But when I get scared and hyper I don't shut my mouth. They all started laughing though so it was ok. Caleb seemed nice. He came over with Kyle and helped me up. I got up and brushed off my jeans. I stopped laughing and said sorry. They said it was ok. I was still really hyper and didn't know what to do. Jamie asked me if I wanted to go on the jungle gym? I said sure. They guys came with us. The only one that really scared me is Austin. We stayed outside until it was like 3 a.m. I was getting tired so was James. We didn't really wanna stay there. So we told them we had to go. They said ok and said they were sorry for scaring me. I told them it was ok smiled and said goodbye. We ran back to James' house and we went in and stayed up the rest of the night talking about what had happend. We started laughing so hard! We fell asleep around 5 a.m. and woke up and like 2 p.m. We took a bunch of pics. Random pics. But it was fun. We ate the rest of the icecream and Chinese. Good mix right?!

I had fun James! I miss you! we need to do another whole week thing like we used to! I miss that!

Brooklyn Cade!

Parks, Dogs, and Hospitals

2010-04-24T11:23:00.000-07:00

Me, Markie, and Em were walkin around the park and there was this middle class person with a dog about 100 feet away. They had a big dog. Like a Doberman or something like that. I dunno. Thats what it looks like. Anyway! We were walkin and the lady didn't have a good hold on the leash and the god came running over to us. It wouldn't stop running and I love dogs but this one was big, strong, and hyper! Well it came running towards me and tackled me to the ground. I couldn't get the fucking thing off me! I tried to push it off and I bit my cheek! I started screaming and blood was rushing down my face. Mark took the dog off me and threw it! The owner came by and got the leash on him. Emily took off her Jacket and tried to get some of the blood off but that didn't help. It wouldn't stop! The owner said sorry and kept saying sorry but that didn't help at all! It was gonna stop the bleeding! It wasn't gonna stop the crying! And it sure as hell wasn't gonna stop the pain! Mark picked me up and took me to the Curtis' house and told someone that we needed a car to take me to the hospital. Pony didn't hesitate to take me. Em stayed there cause she hates hospitals! I mean doesn't everyone? Mark layed me down in the backseat with a towel over my cheek so I wouldn't get blood everywhere. Him and Pony got in the front seats and started driving. We got to the hospital with in a couple minutes and we went to the E.R. Pony got me out of the backseat and I put one arm around his neck and he ran in. I was still crying and one of the people at the front desk asked for some bed thing or whatever. Pony layed me down and told me everything was going to be ok. I wanted him to come with me but the lady told him and Mark they had to stay in the waiting room or whatever! He let go of my hand and they took me in some room and somehow they got the bleeding to stop. They made me count to like 10 in my head and I only got to like 7 I think. The next thing I know I'm waking up to a white boring ceiling. My vision was blurry but it came back. I looked up and there was Pony and Mark. I asked what had happend and they told me everything. I started balling and they told me it was gonna be ok. Pony leaned in and kissed me on the forhead and wiped the tears away from my cheeks. I saw the gang come in. The first thing Steve said was...That's a pretty nast scar. I just looked at him and he smiled. Johnny and Lilly brought me up some Dairy Queen cause the hospital food is like cardboard. I mean seriously! If they want people to get better give us real food! They got me a cheeseburger, medium fry, and a chocolate shake! It was gooooooooooood!!!!! Until I started choking on a fry! That wasn't so much fun.... :(

I stopped choking but my throat hurt really bad! :'( everybody asked if I was ok...I said yea. But then the nurse came in and told people that visiting hours were over! That made me sad...cause having my family with me made me forget about the pain. Everybody left except Mark and Pony. I thanked Mark for throwing the dog off me and taking care of me. He said anytime and kissed me on the cheek and left. Pony smiled at me. He leaned in a gave me a big long kiss and gave me a hug. He told me he'd be back tomorrow. I said ok and then they all left. I was just sitting there. Looking out the open window at the stars. I thought about my mom and dad. About Johnny and Dawn. About when we were a real family. I missed that. I miss the time when my dad wouldn't let anyone hurt me. When me, mom, and Dawn would make cookies for the gang after the played in the snow at christmas. When dad would let me stand on his feet and we would dance around the living room. I guess I didn't realize it but I was crying really hard. Blair and Dallas came in cause they were staying in the hospital cause of Blaze. Blair put her hand on my shoulder and asked what was wrong. I gasped real loud and said nothing. Dal handed me the Kleenex box. Of course he asked about the scar on my cheek and I told both of them what had happend. He said he was gonna find and kill whoever let that happen. I didn't really care anymore. I just told them I was tired and wanted to sleep. I guess Blair could tell something was wrong so she said she was gonna stay with me for a sec. She asked what was really wrong and I told her about how I missed my mom and dad. She sat down on the bed by me and gave me a hug. We talked for a couple hours I guess. I don't remember how long. It always helps when I talk to someone in the gang about whats wrong. There's usually a certian person I go to. But everybody cares...so I talk....and they listen. They know exactley what to say to make me feel better. Blair said she was gonna go. So she gave me a hug and promised me everything was gonna get better. I said ok and fell asleep.

Brooklyn Cade

I Hate Rumbles!!!!!!!

2010-04-13T10:15:00.000-07:00

The whole reason we had one is cause I opened my big fat mouth again! But we won.....I only know this cause someone told me. I would not dare put my pretty little head into that stupid mess of fighting. Not only would I get sooooo fucking hurt! I might even die! So I'm just gonna stay at home and take care of people when they get back! That works for me and I'm sticking with it. For Pony anyway. Me, Jamie, Blair, Katie, Evie, and whoever else that wasn't at the rumble were at home! Well home as in the Curtis house! I was scared cause everytime theres a rumble Pony has blood all over his face and it scares the crap out of me! I was standing by the door and I heard it open but didn't turn around cause I didn't wanna see any blood. I HATE blood, maybe even a little more than hospitals! But I don't care when it comes to Pony! Someone came up and put there arms around me and kissed me on the cheek. I turned around it was Pony. I gasped so loud everbody looked at me. He rolled his eyes and said he was fine. I just stared at him though. He laughed and gave me a big kiss and told me to come to the bathroom so I could help him wash off his face. We went back there and he shut the door. I got a rag out of the closet and put soap and water on it and put it to his face. He leaned back cause it stung him a little. I said sorry and he said it was ok. We started talking and I was wiping the blood of his face and turned on the faucet to get it wet again. He put his hand in the water and splashed it on my face. I jumped a little and he started laughing. So I took a handful of water and splashed it at him and he stopped laughing then I started. We did that back in forth till the top half of both of us was completly soaked. But Pony wouldn't stop. So I opened the door and started running. Jamie was like what the hell is going on in there. Everbody waited for me to answer. But Pony came out and dumped a cup of water on my head and he started to laugh. I elbowed him in the gut and wiped my hands and walked outside. About a minute later Pony came out with a different shirt on. He gave me one of his too so I wasn't soaked. I put it on and we walked to the park like we always do. It probably wasn't the best idea considering there was just a rumble but we didn't care. When we were walking Pony tripped over a rock. I giggled a little and layed down by him and put my head on his chest and he kissed the top of my head. We talked for what seemed like 2 hours. We fell asleep in that time. I woke up to someone saying my name. I looked up and it was Soda. I got up and shook Pony and he woke up to. Soda said time to go little brother. I laughed and Pony got up and put his arm around my waist and we started walking home. Pony told Soda we would be home soon. Pony stopped me and looked at me and smiled and he told me he loved me smile. I always blush when he says something like that. He laughed, He picked me up around the waist and kissed me. I love when he does that lol! He put me down and went behind me. I didn't know what he was doing! The next thing I know I was on his shoulders and he started walking. We got close to the house and Soda was sitting on the front steps. Soda went behind Pony and he pushed me off his shoulders. I have to say it wasn't that scary....ok maybe a little scary....but I'm a flyer in cheerleading so I do stuff like that all the time. Soda caught me, put me down, and went inside. I started hitting Pony cause that scared the crap out of me! I really thought that I was gonna fall. He laughed and pulled me in to kiss him and I laughed and kissed him. I'm so happy things finally worked out! I would cry myself to sleep everynight if it didn't!

I Love You Pony....Don't Forget that!<3

Things Happen For a Reason Right?

2010-04-08T16:35:00.000-07:00

Maybe by the end of this post you can answer my question. so here it goes, here is how my day of hell was.

I had to drag myself out of bed and to school this morning. I felt so sick. Being sick sucks. The only reason I like it is cause you feel so good you afterwards. I dragged myself through the halls at school and I was supposed to stay after for cheer practice because the first game of the season is tomorrow but if I stayed at that place one more second I was gonna barf! Pony and I usually walk home together but he had to do something today...I don't know. But I was actually fine with it. The only thing I wanted to do was blast my music on my ipod and walk alone. I was by the lot and thought I saw someone walk by. I didn't see anybody standing there so I just kept walking. Somebody grabbed me around the neck and stuck there blade into the back of my arm and I started screaming. They turned me around and punched me in the face so hard it just added to the pain. I fell to the ground and the soc (obviously!) had a beer bottle and they threw it at me and blood started to run down the side of my head. When I tried to scream for somebody he just kicked me in the side. They told me to get up or they were gonna shoot me. So I got up real fast. It was bad I was gettin jumped.....I didn't wanna be dead too! The soc turned me around and held the gun to my head and told me to get in there car. I heard foot steps and I thought it was Dally or Steve or somebody. He turned around and it was Sean? You guys remember the soc....the one who broke my heart! He kicked the soc in the face and I fell to the ground and a rock hit my cheek and it started to bleed. He told me to grab the gun so I did so the other guy couldn't get it! I didn't know what to do with it so I just put it in my bag. Probably not the best place but I didn't care at this point! Sean was trying to beat up the soc....wierd there both socs but there against each other lol.....anyway..Sean is like really really strong but this guy was alot stronger. He kicked Sean in the side and Sean fell to the ground. The guy grabbed the gun out of my purse and put it to my head and picked me up and shoved me in his car. I tried to get out but he took off so quick that I almost fell out. I shut the door and sat back in the seat crying...wondering about Johnny, Pony, and everybody else. The guy stopped at a red light and I held on to my purse. He must of heard me cause he turned around and told me that if I even thought about running I would regret it! I kinda let go but was still holding on. He slapped me in the face and that was enough to knock me out! When I woke up we were in a parking lot! He opened up my door and I got out and he had me by the hood of my jacket. He stopped and started talking to someone. He was like "haha Yea I got another one right here." That scared me a little....or a lot! if he had "another one" that made me wonder how many fucking greasers he acttually had. Then he was like "nah man I just messin with ya. I found this chick on the street." That kinda pissed me off. I HATE being called a chick. Last time I checked I wasn't a tiny, helpless little yellow bird. No jokes about my blonde hair, my weakness, or being the youngest please...that would be greatly appreciated thank you! The guys heard something so they turned their heads the one soc let me go and started to walk away. I had my bag with me and wasn't sure if I should run or not. He went inside his house and said stay here or I'll come looking for you! That scared me enough to get the hell out of there! Yea I know he said he'd come looking for me but that was a risk I was willing to take. I picked up my bag and started running as fast as I could! I was about a mile away and I saw a little shack on the side of the road. I figured he would come looking for me so I went inside and sat down and started crying. I heard a car woosh by so I peeked out the little window and saw his car. I jumped back. It looked like he wasn't stopping anytime soon. I sat back and started crying again. I fell asleep on a small rug that was in there. I woke up to my cell playing Two Is Better Than One. Luuuuv that song!!!! It was Pony callin I answered it real quick but it wasn't Pony. It was Twobit? Truthfully that was the last person I excpected to hear from. He told me he stole Pony's phone...big surprise.......he said everybody was wondering were I was at. I told him I didn't know. He put the phone on speaker and everyone started talking at once. I screamed "SHUT UP!" and they did lol!!!! Carson asked me were I was. I told her I was in a torn down shack on the side of the high way. Then Soda asked wich highway? I was like fuck I don't know! I'm terrible with directions! They told me they were gonna come find me. Just stay there and don't leave. Someone started to call me and I answered it but my phone died right when I did. I was thinkin fuck! Of all the times for my phone to die on me it had to be now????? I think it was around 7 or something like that. About two hours later I heard a car door shut and someone call my name. I looked outside and there was Sodapop, Pony, and Carson. I climbed out with my shit and I ran over to them and gave them a hug. They asked me what happend and I told them when we were driving back. I was sitting with Ponyboy in the back seat and Carson started cussing like there was no fucking tomorrow! Saying she was gonna kill who ever hurt her Brookie Cookie! And she was the only one aloud to lol. Me and Pony couldn't stop laughing though. She called the others and told them that they found me and were taking me to the hospital to get my arm fixed up or something stupid like that. I started cussing them out! I hate hospitals with a firey burning passion!!!!! They had to practically pull me out of the car to get me to go in! It was kinda funny acctually! lmao........omg no it was really funny! They told the receptionist that they had to see a doctor for my arm or whatever. They did a bunch of shit and about 3 hours later I came out and my arm was wrapped up and it hurt like a bitch! It hurt worse than it was when they picked me up. Anyway the whole gang was out there. We were about to leave but I told them I wanted to see Johnny, Kit, and Jelly. I don't like hospitals so I haven't been up there in a while. But I wasn't about to leave with out seeing them. I went in to everybody's rooms. They all asked me what happend. Johnny and Kit told me they were gonna kill who ever did it to me! It was funny. It was getting late so we had to leave. I hate being home alone so I went to the Curtis's house that night. It was around midnight and I couldn't sleep. I got up and I went and knocked on Pony's door and opened it up. He asked what was wrong and I told him I couldn't sleep. He lifted up the covers and let me lay down with him. He kissed me goodnight and put his arm around me and we fell asleep.

So can you answer my question? Do things happen for a reason?

Why Does Being a Greaser Have to be so Hard?

2010-04-04T20:17:00.000-07:00

How could this happen? How could being a greaser effect my life so much until it's finally torn apart?
Let's go back to Friday....the movies.......I went with this guy Vance from the Basketball team at school. He said he wanted to ask me out for a while but was to shy or something. I was thinking about Ponyboy. But I thought why not give him a chance. That was a bad idea though. Last time I gave a soc a chance it ended up ruining my life! We went to the movies with Pony and Ari, Johnny, and some other people I don't know who. I had fun but the only thing I had on my mind the whole time was Ponyboy. When I looked at Vance it pained me cause I wished it wasn't him. It wasn't the right guy who had his arm around me. Who tried to kiss me when he left me at my door. It was just a plain guy. A guy sitting there trying to be nice and get me out of the hurt I was in but nothing happend. Pony stayed at our house Friday and I heard a knock on my door around 1:00. I yawned and said come in. It was Pony. He told me how sorry he was how he never loved anybody like he loved me. I told him how nice of a guy Vance was. How I should give him a chance. He bolted out of my room and Johnny heard him and chased after him. But thats the last I saw of him. I told Sodapop and Darry. But it pained me to. when I told them I started balling like a baby because he always been here for me. And now when I wake up in the morning to find him he isn't there. I walked in him room today and a tear rolled down my cheek a tear turned into a flood. I had to get some air so I walked to the park. Vance was there on a park bench with some of his friends. I kinda tried to avoid him but he said "Hey Brook come over here." I really didn't want to but I did anyway. When I was close one of his friends tripped me and I fell to the ground. All he did was laugh. I got up and another guy slapped me on the butt. Vance got up and pulled me over by a tree. He took out his switch and stabbed it into the place where me and pony carved our names together and said thats over now you got me. I gave him a dirty look. He laughed and pulled me in to kiss him. I pushed him away real quick. He said in a really scary voice "Hey! you better stop it or before you know it your little greaser isn't gonna be here for you anymore!" I yelled at him and started cussing him out. He slapped me in the face and pushed me to the ground and started kicking rocks and dirt in my face asking how I liked that...blah blah blah, got out his switch again and threw it to the ground right by my foot. It scraped the edge of my shoe and I looked up at him he was turned around yelling at one of his friends I got up and started running as fast as I could! After about a block of running I ran into Pony. I was out of breath and he asked me what was wrong I couldn't tell him because I was out of breath. He moved my hair away from my face and saw a big red hand print across my cheek. Vance was like 20 feet away from us now. Darry, Soda, and Steve pulled up in the truck and told us to get in real quick. When I was about to get in Vance pulled me back by my hood and dropped me to the ground. Darry got out real quick and punched him in the face. Vance's other friends were there kicking dirt in my face so Steve and Soda came over and started beating the shit out of them. Pony got out of the truck and scooped me up in his arms and got back in the truck and held me. All I was doing was crying. I couldn't help it. I almost died so thats a good reason I guess. Pony was holding my hand. I felt a tear drip down on my cheek and I looked up at him and he had tears rolling down both sides of his face. I kinda got up and took off my jacket and wiped away the tears from his face. He smiled at me. All I wanted was for Pony to hold me and never let me go. I love Ponyboy more than I've ever loved any other person in my intire life. If I lost him I would kill myself because I couldn't live on if something happend to him. He came over to my house. He laid down in my bed and I laid down facing him and he put the cover over both of us. He gave me a big long kiss. I was so happy but all I could do was cry still because of what happend. I put my head on his chest and just layed there. No sound, No movement, Just laying there still as a person could be. I ended up falling asleep at one point. I don't remember when. But I woke up to his heavy breathing. The sun was peaking through my satin blue curtian. I sat up and looked at him and he looked at me. He brushed his hand over my cheek and put it behind my neck. One single tear rolled down my cheek and he smiled. He pulled me in to kiss him. I wispered in his ear how sorry I was for being stupid, for being wrong, how much I loved him, and how I never wanted to let him go. He said I know. He gave me another big hug. One arm was on my back and one was by my neck. We laid back down with his arm around me. I could be the happiest girl on the planet at that point. All I needed was my other favorite guy and it would have been perfect. I need Johnny to be ok. I can't live without my brother. He's been there every second of my life and if something happend to him half my life would be missing. He was there when I was little to make sure I was ok when after our parents beat us. He told me that everything had its own way of working things out. Promised me that when we were older we would get a castle and he would be the prince and I would be the princess. I always remembered that because thats what he always told me when I felt bad. I wish he was here with me. So I knew he was safe. So I knew he would be ok and so I wouldn't have to worry about where or how he is. If those soc hurt him I'm gonna take a gun and shoot every single person who hurt them. If they mess with one Cade they mess with all of us.

Brooklyn Cade<3

April Fools!!!!! :P

2010-04-02T19:32:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was April Fools Day.....yay whoo hoo sooo so so much fun!!! So cheer practice was today after school! James stayed after cause she had to do something for the school paper. But being the newest cheerleader.....well I got pranked....or punked or whatever you want to call it! April fooled...that's what I'll call it. Bottom line is it wasn't fun! I'm a flyer....which means I'm one of the people who goes up in the air and they have to catch me! Well I was at the top or whatever and they threw me up and I thought they weren't gonna catch me....cause nobody was there to. But then someone did and I looked at them and it was a person in a big gorrilla suit! I flipped out and started screaming! I jumped out of there arms and started running. They were all laughing and I was pretty pissed so I just left for the day. James came running out and was still laughing and I gave her the death glare and she stopped right away....or tried to she couldn't help it. Wich is ok but it made me mad I guess I don't know. But we were almost home and we didn't know it and somebody was behind our bushes. So when we got to my door they jumped out and started screaming. We got so scared that we punched them in the nose....but it was Carson and Soda....of all the people to be there. I mean come on I thought it would be steve...or Dally...or Twobit!!!!!! But not Sodapop....yea Carson big surprise but we felt really bad that we punched them and I punched Carson and she looked like she was gonna kill me so I took off as fast as I could! I ran into the park and up the slide. I was at the very top of the jungle gym thing and right by the big slide and she started coming towards me and I fell to my knees and got really scared. then someone grabbed me around the waist and pulled me down the slide backwards. Once again I started screaming! When we got to the bottom it was Pony and James. Carson still looked like she wanted to kill me so we all ran to James' car and started driving. They said they wanted to hang out sometime like old times so we did....or with Johnny to. But we didn't go home because that's probably the first place Car would look for me. So we drove a little while listening to music really loud and we went to some little diner we used to go to. Well when we would just walk there...but now we drive lol...or they do lol. When we got there Johnny was already there at first I thought this was a joke I always get....April fooled the most cause I'm the youngest. When we were done Johnny went to the bathroom and we had James' car so we just left so Johnny could get the check. We figured he would be pretty mad but it was still funny. We went to Pony's house cause that's were everyone else was at most likely and when we got in Carson looked at me and said she wanted to give me something. So I just backed up. And she said she wasn't gonna hurt me but it's Carson! WHY WOULD I TRUST HER ON APRIL FOOLS DAY????? Can someone tell me that?????? But Jelly was standing behind me when I tried to back up and I looked back and she had a devilish grin on her face and it scared the shit out of me!!!! She took my wrists and tripped me...then she pinned me down on the ground! I started wiggling around trying to get up but it wasn't doing anything. Carson came over and smacked a chocolate cake all over my face!!! It was on my bangs, and all over my hair! It was........well not fun! Carson got down in my face and said...April Fools Day Bitch! I knew she wasn't completely hate my guts mad, but mad enough to smash a cake in my face. Jelly got up and I was just laying there. Shocked I guess....I'm not sure! Ponyboy came over and I thought he was gonna help me up but he took some of the icing off my cheek, tasted it, and said not bad like he didn't even realize what he just did. I took some of the icing off my cheek and slapped him in the face! He didn't do anything he just laughed and helped me up. I went to the bathroom to clean off my face and there had to be one more joke on me before the day was over.....of course I mean why not?! It's so much fun!!! To some people.....but not to the person who is getting joked! I came out of the bathroom and nobody was there. So I figured they went outside. I went out and still didn't see anybody everyones cars were there just no people. I yelled for them but I didn't hear anything. Then I heard a twig snap and I turned around real fast. I got sooooo scared at that moment all I wanted to do was run. But I had a feeling that if I ran it would only make things worse! I kept walking. I was by the street now and still didn't see anybody. Someone tapped me on my shoulder. I turned around and they were wearing a Jason mask. I started screaming so loud!!!!! They covered my mouth to were I couldn't scream anymore! Somebody else was coming out and they had a chain saw and I started crying really hard and screaming again!!! They wouldn't stop coming towards me and then about 10 other people came out and they had ripped clothes on and bloody faces and I fell to my knees and couldn't help but cry. They all came towards me and said.....APRIL FOOLS!!!!!!!!!!! So it turns out.......Pony was holding my mouth shut. Darry had the chain saw.....and everybody else was wearing the ripped clothes and had bloody faces and stuff! I was still crying, but crying because I was pissed off. Everybody tried to cool me down but it didn't help! I finally stopped crying and they said sorry but I didn't care.

That had to be the worst April Fools Day joke I have ever had played on me!!!! But all I can say now is I forgive you and laugh about it.....cause I'm not gonna stay mad at all of you forever about some stupid joke!

Brooklyn "Scared as Hell" Cade!!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-30T18:12:00.001-07:00

Last night I had a dream that I was laying in a field watching the sky turn from pink to orange as the sun was setting.My head was resting against someones chest. At this point in my dream I didnt know who it was, I just knew how much I loved them and how special they are to me. I listened to their heartbeat, the sound that sounded so sweet in my ear, the sound that kept me going, kept me unconditionally happy, that let me know that as long as I was with them everything would be okay. I lifted my head to look at their face......it was Pony. After that I woke up and I started crying. I wish Pony had been there when Dallas kissed me, so he could see how forcefully I pushed Dallas away from me and when he tried to lean in again I punched him hard in the chest and yelled "I love Ponyboy!" and i threatened him that if he tried it again I'd break his jaw.

Before this, I didnt know what it was like to cry myself to sleep at night, but now every night I drown myself in my own tears, sobbing so loud, keeping Johnny and Dawn awake at night. I know they can hear me but I just cant help it. I feel as if someone slit me open and ripped my heart out. The only thing that kept me going... is gone. I have to be forced out of my bed every morning for other reasons than just being tired. I have to force my feet to carry me through the halls at school. In class all I do is just sit there and listen, yet I hear nothing, nothing except for the sound of my breaking heart, reassuring me that its still there. And I wonder how many more breaks it will take till it kills me.

I've never loved anyone as much as Pony. I miss his fingers in mine, his arm wrapped around my waist, his precious lips against my skin. I wouldn't want that from anyone else... just Pony! What happened to cause this was not what it seemed. Pony is my one and only love. I just hope he realizes that before my heart is so long decayed that the Brooke he came to know, has become a living corpse.

A Little Late!

2010-03-29T20:43:00.000-07:00

Ok sorry James and Jelly! here is what I got you two for your birthdays!!!!

Ok James first!!!!!

Then I got her BFF charm Braclets!

Ok now Jells!

Hope You Two Had an Awsome birthday!!!!!

Brooks!!!!<3

♥Beach♥Party♥

2010-03-24T20:44:00.000-07:00

Tonight the gang went to the South Side something Beach! There was a party there tonight so the whole gang went! It was about a mile down from the hotel so it wasn't far. We all got out of the car and some people just ran off. the sun wasn't all the way down yet so me, James, and Pony went bye the water to hang out. It was fun till Pony started splashing us with the water! I don't think Jamie liked it but I just pretended like I didn't so she wouldn't be like "Oh my god Brook come on!!!" It's always funny when she does that! But I feel bad sometimes too. She left cause she was getting sick of the water splashing. Pony chuckled and smiled at me and came over and started making out with me. He stopped and we sat down on the sand and watched the sunset with my head on his shoulder and his arm around me. It was getting kinda cold so we went to the inside part or whatever. There was a small arcade. I sat down on one of the motorcycle game things backwards and leaned forward and kissed Pony again. God I Love Doing That!!!! When we were kissing Carson came in and slapped us both in the head to come outside. I put my jacket on and we went out. The music was blasting and I ran over to James and she told me about her and Shy! I was soooo happy for her!! The music started blasting and we were dancing our asses off then everybody else started dancing too! It was really crowded and someone took my hand and pulled me towards the water and turned me around and kissed me. I could tell by his kiss it was Pony. no matter how dark it was and even though I couldn't see his face I could tell by the touch of his hand and his kiss it was him! Oh and by the way me and Katie are about the same hight. Just letting you know. He turned me around it was Sodapop!!! Ok first, I don't know how he didn't know it wasn't Katie! She's having a baby! Yea......I saw his face and I backed up real fast and fell to the ground and started crying. He was like "Oh shit!" and ran over to me and asked if I was ok. I said yea and wiped the tears from my face. He said he was gonna go and I said I was just gonna stay there and layed down in the sand. He walked away and I turned around and saw him talking to Pony and he pointed to me. Pony walked over and said hi. I turned my head away and had a tear rolling down my cheek. Pony took my chin and turned my head and wiped the tear from my cheek. He pulled me in for a kiss and I stopped him. Our foreheads were together and our noses were kinda touching and I told him that I didn't mean to do! He said he knew and he kissed me for a while and smiled at me and told me he loved me. I said I love you too. And I mean it was Soda he's like a brother to me! But if it had to be someone in the gang besides Pony or Johnny, I'm glad it was Sodapop. I don't think I would have been as calm if it were Dally or Twobit...or even Steve! I would have just been weird! Well because it's Soda if that makes sense! If you don't get it then I guess it's just a Brook thing. And I guess the Curtis Brothers have something about them because I really thought iit was Pony lol. When we were back at the hotel I went to lay down cause I was really tired! Pony came in the room and kissed me on the cheek. I had my eyes closed and smiled cause only Pony would do that and the lights were on so it was obvious lol. I heard the rest of the people in the room start giggling when he left but I just put the cover over my head and started blushing. They turned off the lights and we went to bed.

And that was the perfect end to the almost perfect beach party!!!!

Brooks!!!!! here was me and Pony on the beach!<3 luv you Pony!

Brooklyn Cade: Happy Girl

2010-03-23T14:21:00.000-07:00

Ok so we're at Disney!!!! I'm not sure if its world or land but it is in Cali!!! Last night we all went out to dinner and were talkin about what we would be when we grow up! Well more like Kit, Jel, and Steve were but I wanted to know too. Steve said I would be a Cheerleader for some sports team. :P When he said that I realized how much I missed cheerleading!!! Sounds stupid right but I remember having so much fun when I did it! One problem....or two. Cher..Sherri is the head cheerleader and The tryouts were today. Jamie started talking to me about some old vintage guitar she sold. I didn't know what the hell she was talking about or how much it was! She said it was $900!!!! I was lik HOLY SHIT JAMIE!!!! The whole gang looked at me and started laughing!*blush* Pony just smiled at me and didn't really laugh but did a little chuckle lol. Johnny heard us talking and said he wanted to come home with us! I knew why and I didn't hesitate to ask Jamie if he could come! She said of course!!!! So when we got back to the hotel everybody went to the pool. Me, James, and Johnny left earlier to go pack to go back home. When everybody got back they asked where we were goin? We told them the whole story and they agreed to let us go! it was around midnight when I asked Jamie if going home was the right thing? Becoming a cheerleader again? She said she had already bought the tickets for the plane home and I said I knew that but wasn't sure if it was the right thing! I think she was kinda mad at me so I thought I would sleep on it! I went over to the boys room and told johnny to get clothes ready for tomorrow moring in case we do go! He was kinda confused but I told him I would tell him about it tomorrow! I kissed Pony goodnight and gave him a hug and left. Jamie was already asleep so I got in her suit case and laid out clothes for her so if we did decide to go then we could leave right away! I laid out my clothes, set an alarm, and went to bed. I woke up when the alarm sounded and people threw pillows at me!!! So I quickley turned it off lol!!!! I listened to music while I took a shower and did my makeup and everything. I realized I wanted this! I wanted to be a cheerleader agen!!!! So I went over to the boys room and opended the door! (we had a key card to both rooms) I went to where Johnny was sleeping and told him to wake up we're going home! He got up pretty fast and again people threw pillows at us!!!! I mean really come on!!!!! I felt bad for leaving Pony but sometimes a girl has to do what a girl has to do. I wrote a quick note and kissed him on the forehead and left so Johnny could get dressed! I slipped back into my room and woke up Jamie and told her all about what I was thinking about and she said really in a tired but kinda happy voice! She got up and yawned really big and got dressed! I looked at her and said thanks James and she came over and gave me a hug and said I would do anything for you and hugged her back until we heard a knock on the door! It was Johnny. We wrote a note for the girls when they woke up and went to the front desk and asked for a bus to the airport! We just about missed our flight but we got home! James had to stop by the house real quick to get the bat! Johnny said thank you to the both of us and went back to his room to get some more sleep. School had started about 3 hours by the time we got home. So me and Jamie went to school! :( Four hours isn't that bad but when James saw Sherri or Cherry she "dropped" the bat and it started rolling towards her and Cherry stepped on in and went BOOM! on the ground!!!!! It was awsome we started laughing and She had to go to the hospital because she broke her arm and leg! LMFAO! After school we went to the gym! We waved to mine and James friend Danille who was the new captain! I said Jamie wait! Are you positive this is the right thing! Jamie said Brook I didn not just spend $500 dollars flying you out here so you can quit on me now! But she said it in a calm voice like one of those best friend speaches! So I went over to danille and she gave me a hug cause she could tell I was nervous and said I was going to do fine! It came my turn and I looked at James and she smiled at me and I smiled back and took a deep breath and did what Danille wanted me too and before you know it I was on the team! Jamie ran over to me and we started jumping up and down! I got my uniform and Danille told me the first practice was next monday! So that ment we could go back to Disney! When I got home I told Johnny I made it and we wanted to go back! He smiled and said that was fine he wanted to be alone anyway. I asked him if he was sure and he said he was positive! So we were back in Cali and I called Kit to ask where they were they said they went out for the day and I asked where???? She said back to the park I said ok meet us kinda close to the entrance cause we are back! We got a bus there, me and James did, and she ran over to all of them and gave them all a hug! I saw them behind a bush and they had a confused look on there face's not sure where I was! Jamie looked over at me and I came up they still didn't see me so she twirled her fingers in a circular motion I shook my head no and she did this aww come on all I did for you please face. So I rolled my eyes and mouthed fine! I turned around and did like 10 back hand springs and landed on my feet! Everyone was like "OMG BROOK THAT WAS AMAZING!!!!!!" I laughed and gave them a hug! I went over to Pony and gave him a kiss! We all started to talk about well I don't know everything! And by the time I knew it we were all hanging out like old times! With new friends and old ones! Johnny wasn't there of course but I told him I would call him and told him to call me if he needed anything!!! We all enjoyed the rest of the gourgeous day and rode rollercoasters and ate junk food! I swear theres nothing like being with your family after you have the rough times like we did!!!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS AND ALWAYS WILL!!!!!!!!!!!

<3Brooklyn Cade!!!!!<3

Pony's Party!!!!!!!

2010-03-21T18:06:00.000-07:00

Ok so yesterday Soda and Katie got married!!!! SODA I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!! One thing though! And I can't say I really blame you cause you got married and all but...well I don't really know lol. I was talking to Soda at the reception and he told me that he hadn't forgotten about Pony's birthday it was his brother he couldn't for get him!!!!! We were gonna go to the bar for his birthday! I figured Dally and Steve and Dawn and Twobit would probably get drunk but oh well thats half the fun! And I know Pony's not supposed to be drinking but they have soda there and that stuff so yea! I told Pony to be at my house not dressed up but enough to look nice! He showed up at my house around seven like I told him to! He opended the door and we all yelled SURPRISE!!!!! He had the greatest look on his face and he saw me first so he came over and picked me up around my waist and gave me a kiss! Of course Johnny was about to puke so he split us up and told us to get in the car! we took two cars. Johnny was driving one and Darry was driving one. We got to the bar and everbody was there Tim's gang, um.....I don't know alot of other people that I don't know but the others and Pony know! I could tell how excited he was! The music started playing and a Britney Spears song came on!!! Well the music there isn't live so he knew somthing was up!! This time the music was live! Yea I got Britney Spears to Ponyboy's Party in Tulsa Oklahoma! PLEASE I AM BEGGING YOU DON'T ASK HOW I GOT HER HEAR!!!!!! JUST BE HAPPY I DID!!!!!! Nobody knew she was gonna be there except me. So when she got on stage and started singing and that Pony and Johnny started screaming there heads off!!!!! lmao! That had to be the funniest thing I have ever seen in my life!!! The music was really loud so people where yelling my name to get my attention. They asked me how I got Britney here in Tulsa? So I told them that I was at the store getting something for Johnny and when I was leaving I saw her she had a cap on but I could still tell it was her. I told her how much my boyfriend likes her and she laughed and agreed to come to his birthday party!!!!! I was so so so so so happy! Maybe a little jealous but I wasn't gonna let this chance slip by for Pony! She sang like 3 songs or something like that and got off the stage and told Ponyboy happy birthday and kissed him on the cheek! The gang looked at me when she did that and I just had a blank stare on my face I wasn't mad, I wasn't sad, I was just mutual. She had to go though because if the paparazzi would see her and well that was just about it! after she left I was sitting at the bar talking to James, Lily, and Em. And you know how they have those bar stools to where they swing around well Pony swung me around put his hands by the back of my neck and gave me a huge kiss! When he let me go I smiled at him so big and he smiled back in a quite voice I said happy birthday babe! He picked me up from the stool and held me for a while somewhere in that time we started dancing! People kept wanting us to slow dance together so we did just me and him on the dance floor. It was a little wierd at first but I got used to it! The hospital and Darry said Pony couldn't drink but Darry let him have like one or two shots of whiskey or something in a shot glass. Hell for all I know it could have been soda. But we all left around 2. Everybody was in there cars. I stopped Pony at the door and he smiled at me and came back. He gave me a kiss and a hug then we went to each of our cars(Johnny's and Darry's) and drove off.

Happy Birthday Ponyboy I Love You!!!

-Brooklyn Cade<3

Not Exactley Night In Shining Armor. Or Should I Say Nights??

2010-03-17T14:31:00.000-07:00

So I felt bad about the boots thing Johnny keeps bringing up. So I decided to pay him back his money! I took $70, the boots were $120 so I owed him half! I had one hundred! PLZ don't ask me where I got it! I didn't do anything bad! I didn't steal it! I'm not a hooker so we can move on! Me and James were gonna go to the hospital after school but school food is shitty, and so is hospital food! So we went to Dairy Queen before we went to the hospital to see Pony! I thought Johnny might be there so I told her we had to make a quick stop by my house to get somthing for him! James told me I should get Pony something to make him feel better! So we went to the store by the gift cards and stuff like that and there was a small little bear that said I LOVE YOU on it's stomach! I picked it up by the arm and it said it too! Jamie was like OMG YOU NEED TO GET THAT FOR HIM!!!!! I laughed and said ok! I checked out and we headed up to the hospital! We got up there and Soda was sitting on one of the chairs next to Pony's bed! Pony looked and smiled at me and I felt guilty! I don't know why! But I felt bad when I saw him in there! I went up to him and gave him a kiss and gave him the bear I got him he had the same surprised look on his face like I did when I heard the bear talk lol! But he looked up at me and said he loved it and I kinda blushed! we were there for about 5 hours me, Pony, and James were. It hasn't been just us 3 hanging out in a while! Jamie said she had to go but I wanted to stay there with Pony! So James got a ride home! It was about 9 when I got a call from Johnny! Everybody was at the Curtis's house and he was wondering where I was! I told him I was with Pony! So I hung up the phone and told Pony I had to leave but I would see him tomorrow! I gave him a big long kiss and gave him a hug and left! I was about a block away from the house (the Curtis house not mine). And I heard someone with a low voice say"Brookie". I turned around and got really really scared! It was Sean and a bunch of his friends! I asked in a scared voice what he was doing here and he said "oh I don't know just hangin" His friends started to circle me and one came up behind me and covered my mouth! I bit him and kicked him in the shin and booked it out of there! They started to chase after me a million things were going threw my mind but one thing was "why can't this boy give it a rest??" I didn't want to see him anymore and he knew I hated him and maybe that's why he didnt want to let go! I was really close to the house now and I saw someone walk in and I think it was steve! I screamed his name and Sean and his friends caught up to me and tackled me to the ground! I hit my face on the concrete and I could feel my cheek and my forehead starting to bleed! Then all of a sudden I was four people running towards me and beating the crap out of Sean and his friends!!!! Dally had Sean on the ground practically crying! Steve, Kit, and Dawn had the rest of them on the ground to! Steve was doin really good! He had two guys on the ground! He kept gettin punched but he's tough enough! He can handle it! All he kept doin was punchin them in the face and kicking them in the sides! Kit was doin pretty good too! I know that Saturday was her first rumble but for it being her first I was surprised! And Dawn well she was kicking them in the...........stuff? It was pretty funny acctually! After that she was picked one of the guys up by the back of his shirt and kicked him and he flew backwards!!!!! I backed up into a stop sign and stayed there till all of them ran off! I don't think they saw me at first! But then Kit saw me and ran to me! I couldn't help but cry and cry and cry! When the four of them were by me Kit and Dawn kept tellin me to calm down! Dally picked me up and carried me inside and laid me down on the couch! I was still crying and everybody saw me Steve was telling Sodapop what happend and Katie saw me and went down the hall and got me a wash rag and wiped the blood of my cheek and forehead. Johnny came by me and asked what had happend and I was still really choked up and was breathing really hard! Dawn had told him and He got really pissed! I kinda sat up and Johnny sat down by me and gave me a hug and told me everything was gonna be ok! I laid back down on the couch cause I was really tired and fell asleep! I heard the door slam and I did that gaspy thing some people do when they fall asleep and get woken up or something! Johnny was carrying me to my room! He was just about to shut the door when I said wait! He came back in and said what in a tired voice! I took out and envolope in my back pocket! He looked at me weird and opened it up! And asked what all the money was for! I said cause for the boots! He said what? I said the boots don't tell me you forgot? I took your money to bye 120 dollar boots!!! Johnny was like ooooh ok and laughed a little! He said thank you and I told him I would never take his money agian then I paused and said without asking and he laughed and covered me up and said goodnight. Dawn came in and said goodnight to and said she was glad I was ok! I said thanks! And said even thoughwe fight sometimes doesn't mean I wouldn't do anything for you guys! You know that right? They both laughed and gave me a hug and told me to get some sleep little sis!

The One and only Brookie Cookie! No Bcake! Or anything dumb like that lol!!!!!!!!!!

A Trip Down Memory Lane!

2010-03-11T15:36:00.000-08:00

Ok so I didn't know what to post about but Kit said we should post about memory's we had as a kid! So here it is:

I remember it like it was yesterday just a guy and a girl bff's hanging at the park! Well we were at the park alone till everybody else came! It had been raining that day so there was alot of mud everywhere! Well a certain boy thought it would be funny to chase me around the park in the mud I couldn't run that fast because I was in flipflops! You know rainy but nice weather! Well I was running and I stopped and he ran into the back of me! When he hit me I fell face first into a puddle?.........of mud! I was pissed...btw I was only 7 at this time so about 7 years ago...........anyway back to the story! He ran into me and I hit the mud face first got in my mouth and everything! Well everybody was laughing at me and that made me REALLY PISSED!!!!! So I picked up a handful of mud and threw it at "him" but he ducked and it missed him and it hit Soda! LMAO! It was funny at first till He threw some back at me and it mistakingly hit Blair! Just as a reminder I wouldn't throw mud at Blair Mathews! You'll get your ass kicked! But She threw some and Dally Did and Then everybody started throwing mud! It was the funnest day of my life! It was me, Soda, Carson, Jamie, David, Twobit, Jelly, and Darry on a team!!!!! And Blair, Jonny, Dawn, Kit, "Him", and everybody else was on that team I don't exactley remember who was on each team but I do remember that it was at least those people on the teams!!!! But my team won of course!!! That's cause we're BADASS!!!! We fought until it was dark out and we had to go home! Everybody started to leave! But "he" stopped me and said he wanted to take me to his secret hide out that nobody in the world knew about! I said ok in a strange voice cause like now I was a scaredy cat! But he took my hand and there is a lake bye the park so he went down in it and grabbed my waist to help me down. He took my hand again and told me to not be scared cause I always had a look on my face when I was scared! He took me throught the creak up a little path and there was a small tree house with a ladder leading up to it! He went up and helped me up the ladder and took my hand when I was up all the way and I was like OH MY GOD THIS IS AWSOME!!!!! He laughed and looked at me and came up to me and kissed me! I just stared at him for a minute and leaned in to kiss him again.......he looked at his watch and it was like 9:30 or something like that! We went back to the park and everybody was there looking for us! We're were only gone for like 20 minutes but all of the "BIG KIDS" were like WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING YOU SCARED US!!!!!!! Yea they were pissed but they forgave us eventually and we all went home!

There you go theres my memory!!!!!! And I said "him" and "he" through out the post cause I wanted you guys to guess who the guy was that did all that stuff to me.......the mud puddle, the tree house, the first kiss.........So can you guess????????????

Crazy Nite!

2010-03-08T13:26:00.000-08:00

Ok so first of all theres a new chat! http://www.chatzy.com/579936800419 theres the link! and if you need the password think twobit and if you still dont get it then we'll just do what we did last time! Now last night me, Soda, Steve, Kit, and Twobit where on there and I got really sad cause of the Jamie Twobit thing! I didn't exactley say that but whatever! And then Soda said he knew my secret I didn't know what the fuck he was talking about! He said I had the hots for him! Then I blew up and Kit told me to calm down and somethings were said! Some harsh things! Things that wouldn't be nice in a million years! But he said it was a joke but I was still sad, well Kit was gone but I told him I was still sad and I needed one of her hugs! He said he was gonna do something for me and he's not exactley a person who pulls pranks but I sure as hell didn't know what he was gonna do! He told me that Darry had already gone to bed so he was gonnna let Pony come over to my house for the night! I must have told Soda about a million times that I loved him for doing that for me!!!!! It was around 9 and I heared a knock on the door I ran to open it and it was Pony and Soda!!!!!! He came to drop off Pony. So he picked me up in his arms and gave me a kiss! Johnny came out of his room and asked what was going on! Pony and Soda said hi to Johnny and we went back to my room! I heard Soda start to tell Johnny about what happend! Johnny wasn't to happy about it but he was happy that I wasn't sad anymore! I shut my door and sat at the end of my bed and told Pony what had happend cause he didn't know why he was there but he was ok with it lol! Then we just started making out cause well thats what we do! But we stopped. He was kinda leaning up against the wall and I was laying my head on his chest! and we just talked about whatever I don't even remeber! Then I looked at the clock and it was 12!!! I knew Johnny had been asleep a while! But time went so fast! So we got up so we could get under the covers so we could go to sleep and he kissed me goodnight and told me he loved me! I did and told him the same! He covered us both up and put his arm around me and I held on to his hand and we were both out in about 10 minutes!

The End!

Brooks!!!!!

Young and Naive :P

2010-03-06T17:36:00.000-08:00

So I was Goin through some old pictures at our house and came across somthing I'm a little embarrased of!!!! Ok so I used to be a cheerleader! Yea yea go ahead laugh your ass off but I used to like it! But now I hate those stupid sluts! Espeacilly a redheaded one but I don't want to talk about her!!! But Johnny, Dawn, and for some reason Pony would always come to the games or whatever I guess cause he was always with Johnny and them three were the only ones who cared enough to go!!! Anyway here are some pics from my used to be fantastic cheerleading!!!!!

When we were on different teams:

When we were joined teams:

Sad And Happy All At The Same Time!!!

2010-03-02T18:12:00.000-08:00

Ok so the dog I found unfortunately had a tag so Johnny made me put up flyers for a lost dog and somebody came by the house today and found her! I was really really sad but they gave me 50 bucks or tried to I told them I couldn't take it so when I shut the door they slid an envelope under the door I took it opened it up and it was fifty bucks! I opened the door back up to give it to them but they were already gone so I took it and Johnny came home and he saw that callie/bucket(happy dawn?) wasn't there and he asked where she was and I told him the owner came by. I knew he was happy but he felt bad so he asked me if I wanted to go get some icecream from where we would always go when we where little! I said sure and so he drove to for about 10 minutes and he rolled down the windows and the music was blasting and old people in their cars where yelling at us but we didn't pay attention to them! When we got there I got chocolate and he got chocolate peanut butter! When we were finished we walked out and there was a dog sitting there nobody around it and I pet it and but Johnny said we had to go so I got in the car and we left when we stopped at the red light the dog came up to the side of the car that I was on and I told him to go home but he just sat there and started running with the car when we started to drive and he runs really fast! cause he was like right behind the car! But we got home and he was still there and I looked at Johnny and he said "NO! NONONO!!!!" But I just kept looking at him saying please please please finally he gave in cause it was a boy dog and I wouldn't shut my mouth! So we brought him in and Johnny helped me pick out a name! His name is Frankie lol he's soooo cute!!!!!! I sat down on the couch then johnny did on the other side to watch T.V. and Franks jumped up in the middle of us and put his head on Jonny's lap it was adorable!!!! I think Johnny likes him so we're keeping him!!!!! YAY I'M SOOO HAPPY!!!!!
Here's a pic of him!!!!!

New Puppy!

2010-02-27T10:52:00.000-08:00

So the other day I was walking home from school and it was really cold outside and I had my coat on and my bag and everything. I was just about to the park and I saw a small brown box kind of moving around! It scared me a little but I put my bag by a tree and walked over to it. There was a little brown thing in it and it looked like a child's teddy bear the hadn’t been taken care of! I picked it up and it was a small puppy! I mean it looked like a torn up rag doll! It kind of yelped and liked my cheek and I knew I couldn’t let it stay there in the freezing cold in a box so I took of my jacket that was underneath my coat and wrapped her up in it and held her in my arms! I walked home and I gave her a bath and when she got out and was all clean she was running around the house playing with spunky! It was soooo cute! I hear wedding bells!! Haha, but then Dawn came home and saw them and I was on the couch watching a movie about asleep and Spunky and well I haven’t named her yet but they were at the end of the couch under a blanket but their heads were sticking out it was so cute! But Dawn saw her and thought the same thing and now we have two dogs, and Pony’s cat, and a bird we never had a single pet when we were with our parents now we’ve got a zoo! It’s crazy! So do you all have any names!!!!!!! I can’t think of anything!

Here's a pic of my puppy!

Movie Night

2010-02-19T19:45:00.000-08:00

So Pony got banned from all the dances till march I mean couldn't it of waited for another week? But it was ok I didn't feel like going out tonight just haning out with Ponyboy and watching a movie! Oh and eating pizza lol! I got the movie Paranormal Activity! So here's my review: SCARIEST FUCKING MOVIE EVER DON'T WATCH IT!!!! Then again I get scared so easily even if somebody comes up behind me and pokes me in the sides!!! I hate that!!! But I went to the movie store and I got the movie and it was rated R I think but one of my old friends works there so he just let me rent it! But I got there at 7 and Darry was goin on his date with Sammy! He told us to behave and don't do anything stupid! He trusts us so much doesn't he? But we went to the park like we normally do and hung out there for a while! We went back to the house and Ponyboy ordered pizza Half mushroom and half was sausage cause I don't like mushroom! He put in the movie and we ate the pizza! Then I laid down on the couch kinda laying on him but he was holding me and he had his feet up! The movie started and he didn't let me go the whole time we both screamed through out the whole movie but it was kinda funny! When it was over I started to get tired and almost fell asleep on his lap but he kinda shook me and told me he wanted to give me something!!!! So I sat up and he went back to his room. I was kinda scared about what it was gonna be and he brought out a small box and sat by me and opened it up and it was a small silver ring with diamonds and on top of that it said "I Love You" on it I looked up at him and he smiled and took it out of the box and put it on my finger. I kinda started to cry and he wiped the tear from my cheek and gave me a kiss! We layed back down on the couch and about an hour later I heard Soda come in with Katie she looked tired and went back to there room but I got up so Pony wouldn't wake up and he saw me and said hi I showed him the ring Pony gave me and he smiled and said he was happy for me and him and gave me a hug! He asked if I needed a ride home but I told him I was stayin there tonight! He said ok and he told me he was tired and going to bed! I said good night and went back over to the couch and layed back down and Pony kinda woke up but just put his arm around me and covered me up with the blanket and I was out in about 5 minutes!!!! It was a great night I had fun Pony!!!! I Love You!!!

♥Brooke♥

Here's the ring Ponyboy got me!!!!!!!

Train Tracks

2010-02-11T21:09:00.000-08:00

I've only been there once...when it happend and I was really little! When I was in my room crying I went into the living room and Johnny, Dawn, Steve, and Twobit where out there. Johnny was telling Twobit and Steve what had happend and I told him I needed to take a walk by myself! Just to get some air and think! I figured Pony hadn't left yet for Texas so I kinda looked around for him I didn't want anybody to know what I was doing so when they asked me I just told them just taking a walk. I couldn't think about where Ponyboy was so I went to the park and he wasn't there and I remembered the day when I kissed Sean and when Johnny said he went to the train tracks! I ran there as fast as I could. I didn't see him so I started to walk about a mile down I saw somebody laying there and I figured it was him! I yelled his name and he got up and just sat there and yelled my name! I started to run and he got up and caught me in his arms! We both started to cry and we sat down and he held me and told me he was sorry for telling me he was leaving he just had something he had to do first!!!! We were right by the cross where his parents died and just sat there and talked he tried to talk me into going to Texas but I told him I couldn't go! Johnny would kill me and him both and I could only live with him going to Texas I don't want him dead too! He said he understood why I couldn't go with him and I tried to change his mind about going but it was made up! I told him I would be here waiting for him and he told me I didn't have to! He said that there are better guys out there and I told him I loved him and he stared at me! I looked away and he told me he loved me too! He kissed me like he never has before and I Told him that I didn't care if it was days, weeks, months, or years!!!! I would wait for him no matter what!!!! He gave me the biggest smile ever and I told him I had to go! He walked me home and walked me to the door and kissed me for about five minutes and gave me a big hug! I hope everything will be okay! I just couldn't let him leave with out seeing him again!

Brooklyn Cade

Happily Ever After!!!

2010-02-08T23:26:00.000-08:00

You guys always tell me not to walk alone on the streets! Theres soc and creepers and they personally scare the shit out of me!!!! But I just needed some fresh. air. Take Some time to think to my self. I've been in the house for 3 days straight feeling depressed cause of Pony and Johnny was taking his best friends side saying to get over him! I guess it's cause it's his best friend I don't know. Any way, I was walking around in the streets somewhat close to the Curtis's house. I walked into the park and sat on a swing! Remembering the times when Johnny, Dawn, and I would swing on them when we where little. I was daydreaming about how I wish it was like that and then I saw a big flash of light and I could tell it was headlights. And only one thought went through my mind and it was socs! When he got out of the car is when I got really scared cause it was Sean! He started walking towards me so I got off the swing and started to back up one step at a time. Kinda obvious but still moving! He told me to not be scared and that Just scared me even more. He told me he knew I still liked him and I was just staring kinda out of words. And finally I told him to get lost he's the whole reason my life is fucked up right now and he came right up in front of me and I tried to run away and he caught my hands and pulled me closer and I tried to back away but he just held me tighter! I started to scream for him to let me go and he pulled out his switch. And I screamed louder! He told me if I didn't shut my mouth he was gonna cut me! Then I started to cry. Not like little sobs but balling cause I was so scared! Me and Pony would always walk to the park right around 9:30 just to talk and hangout. It was right around that time. Sean had tied me to one of the benches and put a rag in my mouth so I couldn't scream. He was talking on his phone in his car facing away from me and I felt somebody put their hand on my shoulder and I gasped and he came around and it was PONYBOY!!!!! I was so ecstatic! I couldn't belive he was there. He took the rag out of my mouth and untied my hands and told me to be quiet so he wouldn't notice us! But it was too late! Sean was stepping out of his car asking what the fuck this was about and a bunch of shit like that! Pony told him to leave me only or he'd regret it. Sean said he doubted it and then Pony went up and Pushed him backwards. Sean did the same! They started to fight I got really scared! I screamed at them to stop but that didn't stop them! I tried to go up and split them apart and they did for a second and Sean punched me right in the mouth! I fell to the ground and started to cry harder already out of breath losing more. Pony Came over to see if I was ok then Sean pulled him up and started fighting again! They were on the ground and I started to run over to them (you'd think I would have learned my lesson already). Anyway Sean grabbed my ankel and pulle me to the ground. Thats all I could remember cause I passed out! I woke up a few times to see them fighting and once I thought I saw Sodapop! It was really weird! Finally I woke up this morning seeing Pony holding me on his bed and holding my hand crying! I guess he didn't know I was awake so I squeezed his hand and he looked up at me and smiled really big! I knew I was at his house cause the party was there and everyone else was there! I guess that was a shock! lol! He helped me get out of the bed and let me lean on him to help me walk! He stopped me at the door and kissed me something I never though I was going to get from him agian!!!! He helped me out to the living room where everyone was sitting except Darry cause college blah!!!! They looked at me and him and looked really releaved! Johnny came up to me and gave me a hug and told me to never scare him like that again or else he'd skin me! Then Dawn, Kit and James helped me over to the couch and I told everybody as much as I could remember. It wasn't much but I was happy for the most part! Pony looked at me like he did before what happend friday and I was Johnny's crazy ass little sister that he wouldn't leave for anything!!!! I had a really bad headache and ankel really hurt so Kit drove me to the doctor! I ended up fracturing my ankel cause when I tripped I hit it on a big rock or something like that!! Oh and when I fell I hit my head on the leg of the park bench! The doctor told me I was lucky to be alive and I knew I was too! I got back to the house and was laying down in my bed and Johnny came in! He told me he was sorry for yelling at me and saying that about me and Ponyboy! I told him I was sorry for being such a brat and he kind of laughed we talked for about an hour just about family stuff! He told me he never got to tell me Happy Birthday and gave me a small box. I opend it and there was a braclet inside! It had diamonds on it and in between them were little blue diamonds!!!! I was with him in town a couple of months ago and I guess he saw me looking at it and knew I wanted it! I gave him a big hug and he put it on my wrist! He left and about 10 mintutes later Ponyboy came in my room! we talked for a while and I thanked him for saving my life and I don't know what I would have done if he hadn't come!!!! He said he would have done it for anybody in the gang but I could tell this was different! We just looked in eachothers eyes and I looked down and he caught my chin and pulled me forward and kissed me I knew he had forgiven me and I was soooo happy I couldn't belive it!!!! He hugged me and I was the happiest person on the planet! The two most important guys in my life were mine agian and I was happier than ever! After that we just went back to Pony's house and Just hung out! I told the girls about me and Pony and they were happy for me! Blair did her aww thats so sweet I'm gonna barf thing but I knew she was happy for me!!!! I guess Pony told Sodapop Cause he looked at me and smiled like Pony did right when I woke up! Everythings good and everythings right and I'm happy this is the best birthday present anybody could give me in a million years!!!!

Whats Happening??????????

2010-02-05T20:52:00.000-08:00

I dont know what happend!!!! When I saw johnny beating him up I just wanted him to stop!!!!! I know I hate to see people get hurt! I like to hear about it but I hate seeing it!!!! Ok Steve you were right!!! I'm so fucking pissed about all the shit thats goin on and cause people keep fighting for no reason what so ever!!!!! I got drunk!!!! It wasn't fun at all I dont know why yall do it!!!!! When I saw Johnny hurting him I thought it was you Pony and thats why I kissed him! Ponyboy I love you!! I've never loved somebody like I do you!!!!! When I was done kissing him I looked at him and I realized who it was!!!!! I ran home and I started to cry!!!!!! Thats why I wasn't at the party I've been crying all night I haven't stopped once!!!!! I have this feeling in the pit of my stomach and it won't go away I feel terrible!!!!!!! Pony I love you!!!! I love you more than anybody else in the gang!!!!!! I want everything to be ok PLEASE PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

First Date!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-29T22:48:00.000-08:00

Ok so me and Pony went to the carnival thing at the school! It was our first date and if I had to explain it in one word it would be amazazing lol!!! As any Best Friend would do on your first date Jamie helped me get ready!!! I wore a simple outfit. Skinny jeans, converse, and my plaid red jacket! She helped me with my hair and my makeup! He told me he'd come around four. So when it was about 3:30 Jamie left to go to the Curtis's house to go to the party! I know it hadn't started yet but everybody hangs out there anyway so yea! Like he said he came right around four'o'clock. I opend the door really excited cause I hung out with him before, but this was different this was a date! I was nervous but happy at the same time and I opend the door! he had a single red rose and I thought it was sooo sweet! He came in and I put the rose in a vase in my room right by my bed! We walked out and a burst of cold air hit my face and I got a chill! he put his arm around me and we started to walk! The school isn't that far away so we just walked! We got there and he got tickets we went on a bunch of rides fast ones, slow ones, stupid ones that we just laughed at the whole way through! We went on a roller coaster and he put his arm around me again and I looked at him and smiled really big and I could feel my self blushing! Then we went on the ferris wheel! We got to the very top and it stopped for about five minutes!!! We were wondering what was going on and then a speaker came on and they said the ride broke down!!! I was like wtf! But I guess it was a good time the sun was just setting! It was the most beautiful romantic thing ever! Once agian he put his arm around me and I put my head on his shoulder! It was sooo sweet and I really can't explain what was going through my head at that point! But about 20 minutes after that the sun was down and it was dark and started to get really cold! But I didn't really care? We watched the stars and then I looked at him and we well kissed!!!!!!! I don't think that anything could make me unhappy at that point! Finally the ride started up agian lol! We got some food like nachos, popcorn, oh and of course cotton candy lol! We went on a couple more rides!!! They started to close it down cause it started to SNOW!!!!!! IT WAS CRAZY!!!!! It was snowing sooo fucking hard and it came from nowhere!!!! Anyway We had to call Kit to come get us cause we weren't gonna walk home in that lol! She was there about 5 minutes later!!! And we went to the party at Pony's house!!!!! Right when we walked in the door I about got attacked by all the girls there! I mean all the girls not just Jamie, Dawn, Blair, Kit, and Carson I mean every single girl that was there it was kinda scary lol!!! they pulled me over to the couch and asked me what happend! I told them I would tell them later I wanted to party not sit on the couch and talk!!! But thats kinda what you do! what ever! The rest of the time me and Jamie and the rest of us all danced our asses off!!!! Every once in a while I would look at Pony and he would smile at me! I knew Jamie could tell I had a good time!!!!!!!!! By the time the party was over me pony and who ever else was up helped clean up!!! We only stayed up so we could go outside with out anyone saying anything!!! We couldn't go outside during the party or else people would know what we were doing!!! So we just waited! Johnny Was talkin to Sodapop. Steve was passed out on the floor lmao!!! Car was on the couch! And Blair, Jamie, Jelly, and Dawn were talkin to Katie So we went outside! He gave me and big hug!!!! And kissed me! I swear I was the happiest person on the planet!!! I don't need somebody with money to make me happy! Just somebody that can give me what I want!!!! Johnny and Dawn came outside and asked if I was ready to leave I said yea in a calm but happy voice! They knew I was happy there my blood they know everything about me!!! When I got home I got in my bed and just layed there staring at the rose!!! No matter how hard I tried I couldn't go to sleep!!!

I Don't Even Know

2010-01-24T22:01:00.000-08:00

Ponyboy just tell me one thing! Do you like me or not??? cause i need somebody right now and i need to know if it can be you or it can't!!! there's too much shit going on and i need a shoulder to cry on!!!

Depression Hurts!!!

2010-01-24T08:12:00.000-08:00

So I feel terrible that James is grounded!!!! I'mm sooooooo sorry!!! I'm scared of what Two-bit will do to get back at us! And Carson hasn't came out of her coma yet!!!! But the worst thing of all is that I went over to Sean's house last week!!! there was one car in the drive way so I just walked like I normally do! And to my BIG SURPRISE Sean and CHERRY were on the couch together! Yea Cherry......Cherry, Sherri Valance was on the couch with Sean making out all over each other!!! I said what the fuck is this!!! and they both looked up! Sean looked freaked and Cherry looked like a bitch! seriously she was lookin at me like haha got you back bitch!!! She came up to me and I was about to slap her but Sean caught me hand! I'll admit I'm not a very good fighter but mess with me and I'll go ape shit on your ass!!!! Anyway IT told me that she got me back for what I did! I was like what the fuck did I do! She was like you know how you've been spending all that time with Ponyboy! I was like what the fuck bitch we're just friends!!!! And I wouldn't CHEAT on Sean But apparantley he would cheat on me!!! But she just kept talkin and then said something that made my heart drop!It said that Sean was the father of her baby!!!!!!! All I wanted to do was break down and start crying and thats just what I did!!!!! I walked home slowly and went strait to my room! Johnny and Dawn just looked at me and could tell I was upset but could also tell I wanted to be alone! They didn't know what was wrong but I didn't want to talk about it!!!!!!!!

But I think a certain greaser could possibly make me feel better! :)

The Trip!!!

2010-01-23T14:30:00.000-08:00

So we decided to drive the van to see carson! I really don't understand why?! no seriously why??? We all got in the van and we started to drive. There was TWELVE of us in there so it was jam packed the whole way there! But it was worth it to see carson!!! Any way about an hour into the trip ponyboy wanted to stop cause he was hungry but we all were cause we left at 10 and didnt really eat that much just junk food!!! So we stopped at Denny's! YUMMY! lol! and we stayed there about a half hour and we were back on the road then agen it took us about a good 10-15 minutes to get all of us back into the car!!! but the thing is Kit was driving! So when she thought all of us were back in the car! she started to drive but we heard a thump on the back window! LMFAO!!! It was Pony! Kit started to drive away without him lol!!! Soooo it took another 10 minutes to get him back in! I fell asleep about a half hour after that and missed alot! unfortunautly!!! :( they told me when I woke up that they had already ate lunch and I was really hungry! For food not for well junk food!!! :P Two-bit was driving by this time and I told him I was really hungry so he stopped at Burger King to get me some food but everybody else wanted something and two-bit forgot to get my order and everybody got there food and I STILL didn't get anything!!! He was driving by the time everybody got there food and But I yelled and told him he didn't get me anything! BUT HE SAID HE WASN'T STOPPING!!!! So I was really pissed! and I was soooo hungry all I ate was chips, cookies, and some food from denny's but that was way early!!! But we got to the hotel and I still haven't had any "real" food! So me, Blair, Johnny, and Jamie walked across the street to steak 'n' shake and I FINALLY got something to eat!!! I was satisfied!!! We had three hotel rooms! Boys & girls.And a room for Sodapop and Katie! we all had a short sleep before going to the hospital and I me and James were the first to wake up cause we both fell asleep in the van for a while!!! she felt bad that two-bit didn't stop while earlier to get me food!!! So we snuck into the boys room and took our makeup with us and put makeup all over his face!!! lmao!!! That's what you get two-bit for not stoppin and making me wait four hours to eat!!!!
So when we got to the hospital two-bit still had the makeup on his face I felt kinda bad but didn't say anything!!! He went up to the front desk to ask what room carson was in and the receptionist screamed and jumped out of her seat!!! and papers went flying everywhere! We laughed our asses off and she gave us a real dirty look! But Two-bit was sooo hoplessley confused so the receptionist gave him a mirror and gasped lol!!! He heard me laughing and looked really really pissed so he started coming after me!!!! It was kinda creepy and so I started to run! he chased me around the lounge for about five minutes! When he finally caught me I told him it was Jamie's idea and let's just say it wasn't pretty!!! But we're with Carson now she hasn't wakin up yet but I really Hope she does soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No Place Like Home!!!

2010-01-20T18:48:00.000-08:00

So I stayed at the Curtis' house the past few nights and I have to admit it was fun staying up late talking to Kit cause she's my sister and I love her for that!!! The thing is that it wasn't the same as staying at the apartment with Johnny! I know we fight sometimes but I know he'll always be there for me when I need him!!! Kit drove me over there to the apartment and when I walked in Johnny was sittin on the couch looking really sad looking at me and I felt terrible that I left him!!! I dropped my stuff and he gave me a BIG hug! There's nothing like feeling the love of your family after you know you've hurt them!!! All I kept doing was saying I'm sorry and..... he kept saying I forgive you and but I couldn't seem to stop!!! He said sorry too! Then it just kinda got quiet and really akward! He said he wouldn't let me see Ponyboy without him because he cares about me more than anything!!! and then I started to cry cause I knew the reason but I couldn't stop........like when I couldn't stop saying sorry! He got me a tissue and held me close and I realized that we have to stay together there for each other like the gang is!!! But after I cooled off he told me that what happen about that muther fucking stupid ass fucker soc james!!!! AND HE TOLD ME HIM AND PONYBOY ARE FRIENDS AGEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See Johnny I told you I had a bad feeling about that stupid ass admit it you have to!!!

ForNever And Always

2010-01-18T19:24:00.000-08:00

I always thought that Johnny was the forgiving,kind-hearted,lovable person of the gang!Not that the rest of you aren't, it's just that when Johnny let that fucker James in the apartment I almost started balling! Mostly because he told me I cant see ponyboy anymore! I told him everybody makes mistakes and he said that wasn't a good enough reason!!! Well Pony came over on Saturday and asked for Johnny he saw the worried look on my face but I still called for him! He came down the hallway and when he saw who was at the door he looked really pissed! Then James came out and he already knows how much I hate him cause he replaced my brothers best friend and he knows thats the reason why! But I hid around the corner so nobody could see me. And Johnny told Ponyboy that he didn't want him talking to me anymore! Pony was talking about how I'm part of the gang and johnny pretty much insisted that Ponyboy left! So then Ponyboy left and I had a tear in my eye hoping Johnny wasn't going to say the same to me! Sure enough he called me into the room and I pretened like I was running down the hallway so he didnt know I heard! I wiped the tears away real quick and he told me to not be around Ponyboy anymore! I started screaming at him and he told me to calm down and I must have told him I hated him about a million times!!!!!!! Then "SWEET INISCENT" Johnny 'cake' slapped me! Yea, Slapped me! I grabbed my purse and ran out the door! I ran faster than I ever have! Faster than when Dal left me at the park!! FASTER than when I heard that my mom and dad where almost home from there vacation! Oh and here's the rich part when johnny slapped me James LAUGHED!!!!!!! :( He laughed I couldn't believe it! So much for a best friend! I guess Johnny didn't here cause he was chasing me but he stopped cause he ran out of breath! I kept running and I saw a car and it looked like Kit and Pony. IT WAS!!! I stopped for just a minute to talk to them! I told them I didn't have time to explain what happend! Then I took off! I'm not sure where I am at right now but it's way better than at home!!! I'll be fine I know my way back. I'll be home in a couple of days but I'm not staying at the apartment

I thought you said everything was going to get better Johnny! What happend!!!

Lonely Girl!!! :(

2010-01-11T14:00:00.000-08:00

So since Johnny came back we got the apartment and moved all the things we had from our house! It was kinda scary cause when we did our parents were there! they were screaming at me saying I couldnt leave, I was to young, and Johnny couldn't take care of me! All of our stuf was outside in Darry's truck cause he was helpin us move! And right when I went inside to get my purse my "dad" slapped me across the face so hard and Johnny was already in the truck and he heard me scream! Him and Darry ran in the house to help me up and out to the truck. Darry had to stop Johnny from do something stupid to our (not so) father!

Today I walked home and just stayed there cause I was gonna go somewhere with Jamie but she said she was going somewhere with Andrew! Kit was going to Talan's house! I didnt really want to go to Dally's house it kind of scares me there with just him and Blair! Johnny and Pony are hanging out and Sodapop and Katie are either working on the wedding or just working! I dont really talk to two-bit or steve there only nice to me cause I'm Johnny's sis! well that's how it works with Steve not sure about Two-bit? And Darry's workin not that I would hang out with him! :P And Carsons gone!!! And Sean is out of town to visit his family!!!!!!

Bottom line is I'm starting to feel left out of the gang! Everyone is hanging out or working and I'm really sad and need to hang out with some one soon!!!

Sean's House

2010-01-07T23:55:00.000-08:00

Ok so Blair put up pix of Kristi's house and Jamie put up pix of Andrew's house so heres Sean's

BEAUTIFUL HUH?

He calls this the GRAND STAIRCASE lol! We had a race down the rail once! I won of course lol

This is his bedroom! He has something on his wall to make it look like it's like outside New York or LA! Oh and he has a tv in his bed!!! AWSOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is were we always hang out and watch movies and stuff like that!!! I think his parents were watchin sumthin lol!!!

HAPPY DAYS ARE HERE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-06T18:30:00.000-08:00

Ok so you guys know how I was dating Sean but he broke it off? Well I was walkin outside at school today with Jamie and we were just talkin and we split up cause we had to go to diff classes but when I was almost to my class I ran into someone and I dropped all my stuff books papers you know like in the movies where people run into each other and everything goes flying?! Well thats what happend. I didn't realize who it was at first. But then we both looked AND IT WAS SEAN!!! We looked into each others eyes for a while! He helped me pick up all my stuff and right when I was about to walk away and we started kissing not even thinking about it and we stopped like a minute later!!! He said he was so sorry for "dropping" me! He also said he thought about me every day since he did it! I told him I thought about him too and I was feeling depressed ever since that day! He said he didnt think about anyone except me and he hasnt looked at a girl the same way! I didnt tell you guys about him breaking up with me cause I knew how all of you would react! You would want to kill him! Bu he asked me if I would go back out with him and I screamed so loud I got a detention lmfao!!!!!!! But it was totally worth it he got a detention too cause the principal saw us making out after he saw how excited I was! Oh and he's cumin to buck's party with me tonight so don't hurt him!!!

there you guys happy I posted sumthin

Oh and this was us out side in the court yard at school I think James took a Pic with her camera I know this cause I saw her when Sean was walkin away! I think she heard me kinda gasp cause she wasn't far away and she came back but I think she stopped cause she knew who it was befor I did lol! thanx alot Jamie!!!!! She begged me to put it on here I don't understand why but it made her happy and she's my best friend so whatever i don't care

That person in the background was the principal is the principal she's really strict and the guy with the sunglasses is the assistant principal

Dead and Gone!!!!!!!

2009-12-30T14:02:00.000-08:00

THATS IT I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!! Everybody is leaving Soda I'm happy for you but everyone is leaving Dally's been gone for about a month! Johnny's Leaving, SEAN IS GONE TOO!!! I started to cry harder than I ever have when I heard about Johnny leaving, I'm leaving for a while too, I cant be around this! I thought that having a soc boyfriend was going to possibly make things some what better for my life but it just made things a whole hell of alot worse! I'm going to my aunt and uncle's house in a different state to get away from it all see other people make some new friends I love you guys but it's just too much! I'm leaving tomorrow so if you want to try to change my mind then you can! I'll come back again but not for a while!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU,
Brooklyn Cade

Kristi and Sean?!?!?!?!

2009-12-29T16:13:00.000-08:00

So a couple nights ago we went to Kristi's house. It was huge! Carson said her and Seth were goin to live in a tent in one of her closets! lol! We were all drinking I felt bad for Blair cause she had to drink water cuz she's having a baby! I saw kristi trying to give a drink to her and it freaked me out kinda! then Blair took a drink and she started to laugh! I went over and asked wat that was about she sed it was root beer! lol! About ten minutes before we left I went up stairs to go to the bathroom cause I think two-bit and his bimbo were in the bathroom down stairs and I didnt want to see that!!! When I got to the top of the stairs almost to the bathroom I saw SEAN AND KRISTI COMING OUT OF HER BEDROOM!!!!!!!!!! After everyone left except Ponyboy I went over to Sean's house and we started towatch a movie on the couch! About a half hour into the movie I told him I saw him and Kristi coming out of her room and he said oh in a really wierd voice I've never heard from ANYBODY before!? He told me that the reason they were in there was because they used to date and they needed closure or sumthing cause the sumthin idk! :( He saw how upset I was!!!!! So he turned off the movie and we started kissing and one thing led to another and no need to explain the rest :D

♥♥♥I thought that I was about to lose the most important thing to me♥♥♥

Dating!!!

2009-12-27T13:50:00.000-08:00

So I'm dating Sean, Blair and Dally are dating, Sodapops MARRYING Katie,Ponyboys dating Kristi, we need to find a not bimbo for Two-bit, someone for Steve, Darry needs somebody also! And Jamie and Johnny are gonna try dating! omg we can call them jj!!!

This was wen me and Sean were in New York at a restaurant after iceskating! Soooooooooooo hot!!!

This one was at the airport place befor we got on the jet before cuming home yesterday!!!!!!

"Marry" Christmas

2009-12-25T16:44:00.000-08:00

Hey, christmas was fun! The whole gang was at the curtis'(of course). We all opend our presents! When we thought everybody was done Sodapop took out a little blue velvet box!!!! He kneeled on one knee in front of Katie and me and Blair looked at each other really excited!!! He said He has always loved her since the time he saw her! How sweet is that! THEN HE ASKED HER TO MARRY HIM!!! She said yes and started to cry!!!

♥♥♥Congratulations♥♥♥

Ok so everyone knows how I'm dating Sean(he's a soc)! Well the whole gang kept wanting to meet him cause they wanted to see if he was "ok" for me! When he got to the curtis' house(cause thats where I told him to pick me up) everybody about jumped him! I felt really bad and I already wanted to kill them! Dally was like " hey bud I wanna talk to you for a minute. I got kinda scared cause when dally wants to talk to someone espcially if it's a soc it's probably not gonna be pretty. But he pretty much pushed Sean onto the couch and I tried to run to him but Two-bit and Steve held me back. Thats when I got REALLY SCARED! Dally started to say that if Sean hurt me he would regret it! And a bunch of shit like that! EVERY PERSON talked to him for about ten minutes. by the time the let us go I was so pissed at everyone I could hardly focus on the date! But when we got to the park! He parked his car and opened my door he's such a gentleman! After i got out of the car I saw this HUGE JET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I told him I've never been out of the state so he took me to wait for it NEW FRICKIN YORK!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then I started to focus!!! I forgot about all my problems!!! We sat together in the back of the jet and watched a movie!!! When we got off there was a GOURGEOUS white horse waiting with a carriage on the back!!!! He said we could go where ever I wanted!!!! So I told him I've never been ice skating so we went to rockefeller center!!!! Wen we got there there was the biggest Tree I've ever seen in my intire life!!!! I was terrible at first and he helped me. You know held my had! And pretty much just held me! I got used to it though. Enough to were I wouldn't fall. Later it closed so we went to eat at some restuarant!!! Im coming home tomorrow Cause it's really late!!!! See you guys tommorrow around 2:30-3:00

sorry for the long post
♥♥♥BROOKLYN CADE♥♥♥

SUGAR AND SPICE!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-23T06:24:00.000-08:00

OMG BLAIR I LOVE YOU! YOU ARE THE BEST FRIEND I EVER HAD! The date went PERFECT! He has brown eyes!Also has brown hair! And I'm not exactly tall actually I'm the tallest girl in my family,not my friends but my actual "family"! First he picked me up in his car! HE CAN DRIVE!!! After that we went to dinner it was actually really fancy! We talked about a bunch of stuff I don't remember it all, but it was really fun cause we talked about stupid stuff and we both knew that but we didn't care! He told me his name was Sean! After we were done eating we went to a really scary movie and he held me so close cause he knew how scared I was(I hate scary movies)! Even though we went to eat before the movie and we were stuffed we still got popcorn and soda"pop" cause you can't go to a movie and not get popcorn it's like the golden rule lol! But any way after the movie we went to the park and he pushed me on the swings! And we were messing around on the playground. And we were sittin on top of the slide and I almost fell off but he caught me right befor I slipped. He is the sweetest hottest guy I have ever met!!! But it was getting kinda late so he drove me home. He walked me to my door. He gave me his number and I gave him mine. Then we were kinda just staring at each other and it got kinda akward so I opend my door and right before I closed the door he grabbed my hand and said "wait" in the sweetest voice I've ever heard and I was sure what was coming next so I went back on the porch!He was looking at me with his beautiful hazel eyes and we both leaned in and we... well you can pretty much guess it from there!!!!

It Was The Best Night Of My Life!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU BLAIR FOREVER AND ALWAYS!!!!!!!

BROOKE!!!

PARTY

2009-12-18T21:41:00.000-08:00

So johnny's party was fun the whole gang was there n sodapop wasnt there for a good reason. There was no chocolate cake! lol pony picked up a white cake or made one idk. If he made it, it was relle good ik it doesn't take alot of work to make a cake but still lol. I kinda saw pony n his girl wen i was walkin out of the house but i walked rite back in cuz i knew he'd be pissed if i saw him. SORRY PONY! I feel terrible, and i dont feel good at all. Everybodys got a significant other, someone to care for them, a gf/bf! i feel like crap! yea thats it i feel like CRAP cuz i have nobody to care for me like everyone else does!!!

Order Restored!

2009-12-17T13:15:00.000-08:00

Ok so everybody knows how dally left me at the park n the socs got me. But i forgave him and he forgave me cuz i was bitchin to everyone bout bein so pissed off at him. but we're good now just to let everyone know. and tomorrow is Johnny's party so it'll be fun.

btw dally you know how you said you beat up the socs at the bar. How did you know it was the right guys. and i litterally mean guys. It wasn't even soc girls that tried to hurt me that's how much us greasers are hated. but any way dal how did u know it was the right people that messed with me i don't remeber telling you about them and i didn't even see there faces how did you know

Once Again!!!

2009-12-15T17:33:00.000-08:00

You think you know a person and then they go and change there plans. It was about last week wen we made them idk couple days ago at the least. I guess i cant really blame him the only promise he keeps is to blair! He was probly with johnny and pony, or stealin sumthin with two-bit. No i know exactley where he was he was with blair! hookin up AGAIN!!! I bet u a million bucks thats why DALLAS WINSTON wasn't at the park today he left me standing there!!! About 15 minutes after standing out in the cold waiting for him(not to mention i didnt even leave my stuff at home i went there after school so i had all my shit with me) the socs drove up in a fancy fucking car i had to run so fast and im not in track like ponyboy. But i out ran a soc car. Those things are relle fucking fast!!! I was out of breath by the time i got home. after that i went to the guys house. And wouldn't you know it dally,blair where just driving up right after i shut the screen door i sat on the couch and started to cry so hard sodapop came over and asked what was wrong. I told him, pony, johnny, and carson what happend cuz they were all there. after a couple minutes the cupple walked in. They asked why i was crying. and we all just stared at them. it had to be the worst day of me life!!! DALLAS WINSTON I AM NEVER TALKING TO YOU AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!! THANX FOR LEAVING ME OUT IN THE COLD AN BLOWING ME OFF AGAIN!!! MUST SOUND FUN TO YOU ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO MUCH FOR BEING THE YOUNGEST AND EVERY BODY PROTECTING ME RIGHT BLAIR!!!!!!

OMG!!!

2009-12-11T14:45:00.000-08:00

I SWEAR TO GOD I HATE MY LIFE!!! u guys know how my account stopped working n i had to make a new one . well i started working again so blair sorry but u can stop following my other account! hey dally wen can u help me with fighting cuz if we're gonna beat up the socs for christmas i relle need help i don't care who helps me i don't even care if it's pony!!! BUT I SRSLY NEED HELP!!!!!!!!

Thanks Giving!!!

2009-11-27T10:27:00.000-08:00

Thanksgiving was fun this year! we got the day off of school and the rest of the week unfortunately i have to go back probly dropping out soon. idk, any way soda wasn't there for dinner he stayed at katies house like most of the night. but darry made a really good dinner he's like the best cook i know lol. soda came back like eight or sumthin like that we where all really tired but none of us wanted to leave i guess we're all lazy. we sat around for a while and talked but that got boring so sumbody popped in a movie i dont really remember who even though it was just last night and like ten hours ago. haha. but i fell asleep like a half hour after the movie started. i woke up on the curtis's couch(big surprise). i woke up to soda slamming the screen door. i thought he was supossed to be at work but he told me he didnt have to work or somthing like that i dont know. of course after we were done talking he had a big glass of chocolate milk. darry was already gone to work. pony, johnny, two-bit, and dally are god i dont know where they are but i dont really care. im probably going over to blair or carsons house i dont know. but my parents arent home im trying to avoid them because i didnt come home last night. when i do see them again im sure there going to take care of me real good. but i'll bring dally with me so i he can defend me if i can find him any where. whatever talk to you guys later

Brooke

First day (finally)

2009-11-20T21:42:00.000-08:00

hey im brooklyn my friends call me brook or brooky. my big bro is johnny we both hate our parents cuz they dont give a shit about us. my mom ignores me and doesnt notice when im gone and my dad is pissed when im not home on time and if i dont tell him where im going ill get the shit beat out of me when i get home. thats why i always spend as much time as possible at the curtis brothers house,i stay the night on there couch alot to. them and my other friends are my family. if i could move out i would.

♥luv ya, Brooky